Disclosures of October
October started off with a solar eclipse in Libra. For me, this heralded a month of relationship consummation and mastery. It also helped me address energies I was still holding that muddled or tainted my authentic self-expression.
Some of these were subconscious experiences and beliefs handed down from my ancestry, my childhood, and my other incarnations. These are often revealed in my dreamtime, allowing me to then address them consciously and energetically after waking. Deep patterns of significance often require us to put them into practice physically, to not only conceive of ourselves hypothetically, but experientially.
In this vein, I was given an opportunity at a family function with relationships that were part of some of my greatest challenges in the karmic cycle that is closing. I felt it was not only for me to address any underlying feelings and distortions, but a possibility for me to demonstrate my authenticity.
As the event approached, my body began expressing the feelings and beliefs still unspoken in me. I broke out in a rash in concentrated and specific places without provocation or injury. After the event I developed blisters in a similar way. There was unexpressed shame, and a belief I was not good enough, that I did not fit in, mixed with a pervasive sense of abandonment and rejection. It is often unnecessary to analyze or revisit the events experienced as a child that fulfilled these energies to resolve them. Energies arise to be processed as they are ready to move.
Being a compassionate witness to myself and others, while remaining open to higher perspectives on all that transpired is what allows closure and resolution. Forgiveness is truly the mechanism for freedom. As these stories and relationships come back around, we can unlock a different perception or understanding. Sometimes they come around to show us that there is no emotional residue left. Neutrality is not the same as indifference; you can love someone exactly as they are without being subject to any emotional obligations or manipulations. Drama and exaggerated sacrifices have been misrepresented for ages as aspects of love, but they are in fact reflective of toxic attachments, entanglements, and deficits.
I often find myself in these challenges simply needing to observe myself and my inner dialog. Observing where I don’t listen, where I make assumptions, where I lock up and feel unsafe, and where I close off and want to bail, helps me be proactive instead of reactive. It takes an effort in the beginning to rewire ourselves to new patterns and responses. Sometimes it’s simply thanking and releasing any intruding thoughts with old info, while choosing to be present for what’s real and currently available and present. It can be taking a breath through a reactive feeling and willing my heart to stay open. It is often me reminding myself of who I am now internally, and offering love to myself regardless of what anyone else sees in me, thinks of me, recognizes, or responds.
We must step to these encounters to practice. This is especially true for well-trodden paths and connections.
We must be willing to allow others to change, and to reflect or respond to our changes too.
The world is changing from the inside out, in concert with our personal changes and responses. Humanity is evolving to experience unity consciousness. Extreme victimization and polarization programming is rising to be resolved in each of us. As long as we make it about the “other,” we are missing the opportunity to embrace the higher light being restored on Earth.
We are not being punished or subjected to anything that we are not involved in creating or sustaining, consciously and unconsciously. The events of our lives have meaning and significance to us. We are growing through every challenge and task. Our results say a lot about the energies we are addressing and investing in for this life. We can see we are part of a bigger picture, when we allow ourselves to expand beyond our personal parameters of belief, expectation, and comfort.
The dream space was very active for me this month, and I was pulled into both major hurricane situations in Florida at the end of September and second week of October. They hit areas I have been visiting for a long time. They are magnificent places full of light and life, but also a shore that I watched deal with red tide increasingly over the years. Red tide is an imbalance and concentration of harmful algae that poses risk to marine life and people. Concern over this issue increased as well, and a surveillance app was created to inform people of the state of the tides.
In a planetary ascension cycle, we are purging toxins, lower frequency energies, distortions, and imbalances in ongoing phases to embody more of our soul light. The Earth has a body as we do, subject to similar processes and cleansing cycles. Storms and water events are part of these influxes and changes. In Helene I was in the storm working with creative and union energy, and in Milton I was in the ocean deep to witness a ship of higher frequency light and intelligence that was surfacing.
I was in awe and reverence for this ancient energy rising. There were many scenes playing out in the water, loss being part of it. Destruction is part of creation, and any density or lower energies give way to become part of the higher order. They exist within and are not lost. ALL were in the water with this benevolent force.
I approached the ship carefully and felt tears of gratitude swell in me for having witnessed the Earth reach this phase. The craft was giant, with a smooth stone-looking surface, in the shape of a double headed obelisk. The ends were identical heads with faces full of white light in the orifices. They reminded me of ancient Egyptian statues, or the oracles in the film The Never-Ending Story.
They carried with them a purity that is bringing transparency and spiritual justice to a new level. I felt a tinge of fear at their power, and their ability to see through things to a core of truth many of us may find unnerving. I was assured of our victory in light and reminded that justice is a return in energy often unseen or unrecognized in ways the limited human perceptions “think” things should happen. Spirit does not sleep, and the energy does not lie. “Let the deceivers and schemers dazzle the eyes and appetites of many, because all will meet themselves according to the weight of their heart and merit. Follow sincerely even if imperfectly.” Still getting chills!
Trust that the layers we are shedding personally and collectively, are what is allowing these higher aspects to return! There is a higher design at play. Learn to see with your own heart and eyes. Don’t give in so readily to the narratives and agendas of others, especially when they are really securing their own positions of power and profit. We must be willing to retire old stories and narratives of doom. We are living in an exciting time of transmutation and transformation! We must trust the universal changes at hand are helping us fulfill our higher destiny.
The leaders of the old system encourage us to fear the earth’s changes in order to create chaos, division, and control in the masses. They add to it with stressors they are creating and managing to keep us small. They maintain their power by taking it from others. This is life in lower dimensional Earth, but times are changing. Many are remembering and restoring their own divine connection, living from the management and mastery of their own light and counsel. Many are done feeding fake handlers and peddlers of bullshit. As their supply diminishes, they get desperate, but NOTHING can stop the divine process in motion. Choose your alignments, allegiances, and agendas wisely. Better yet choose yourself! You are here to be led by your higher self in all your endeavors, so follow your heart no matter what is stressed and emphasized around you.
It’s liberating to surrender the pressure and control in having to “fix” everything. Emissaries of the light don’t lie, bully, or shame others into compliance. The light doesn’t not need to fight, force, or be verified. Its presence is enough to create changes that are solid and efficient. When you experience this in yourself, there is no going back to the court of public opinion, judgment, and blame. You will KNOW the vine for the fruit it bears and feel the truth behind any tale told or sold online.
Precipitating my contact with this ship, I received a new energy that felt and appeared like blue lightning in meditation. It was integrated in my body during a physical encounter later that day. We are dreaming into being, being into dreaming. Our consciousness is communicating and facilitating things through many planes. Explore these realms of yourself! You are being healed in these spaces, gifted in these places, and shifted in all it’s graces.
Know yourself in dark and light.
Be willing to choose a new course for humanity’s plight.
It starts with you. What can you bring to the changes? Where can you live fully in your expression without needing to change anyone or thing outside you first?
Where can you take your power back from people and situations that you KNOW are dishonest and detrimental to your life?
Mass hysteria is common in a group managed by fear. We often choose our own shackles with the narratives and beliefs we confer power. How do these narratives feel? Do they create harmony or discord? What are the actual results of their people, stories, and ideas in the world? The blame and shame game is meeting its demise in the death of this karmic cycle. We are all part of the collective shift, and we will each meet the fruit of our investments and efforts. See to the weight of your heart. It is truly the path forward in embracing the higher light intelligence coming online.
The universal creative force is unconditional Love.
Where do you partition off yourself?
The inner compartmentalization and restriction are met in your surroundings accordingly.
Love is reclaiming and reorganizing.
Love is decluttering and transforming.
Love is the higher operating principle guiding this shift in all its destruction and sublimation. Believe in your origin in Love and allow it to guide you.
Love is healing and upgrading our systems in ways our minds can’t perceive and see at this time unless they are willing to surrender to the wisdom of the heart. Our hearts allow things to be as they are without pressure or force. Our hearts don’t need to fight a villain or seek a savior; our hearts only need a little time to process the fullness of our experiences so they can open to the boundlessness of their splendor.
Words have energy and brandishing them as swords to cut have consequences for both ends of the blade. Words of deception will continue to pale in the light of transparency anchoring on Earth. Trust nothing is as it seems, but all is accounted for in Love. Let go of “tit for tat” unless you want to align yourself with the consequences of agendas that are not your own. New Earth is being created now from the vessels choosing to harbor and facilitate its higher frequencies. Demonstrate and become that which you seek because that is creation in the new Earth. Your energy is needed to birth and support the higher solutions and services securing this shift. It does not matter who knows or believes the truth you experience, because your power is not dependent on anything outside you. Know your power and leave others to theirs. Everyone has the ability to shift when they so choose, but many won’t realize this until they are given the reigns. Love is freedom and acknowledges the dignity and ability in all.
We are shifting out of longstanding survival patterns and frequencies, so be kind to yourself. It is a way of being that is unfamiliar and a little scary as illusions are continually elucidated. Faith is a fateful friend in these times.
I was recently at a farmer’s market and instantly drawn to a piece of art there, that was created with the image of Mary, Untier of Knots. The original was painted by Johann Schmidtner.
In prayers, I kept getting Original Love is resolving original sin, and this image speaks exactly to an aspect of Mary that resolves the “sin of Eve” through unwavering devotion and faith. Her fortitude removes all obstacles and challenges to peace. We are addressing karmic loops in these times and restoring our systems to the settings of Original Love. I called on her assistance in my election prayer ceremony as an overarching energy to hold the US through its transformation. She told me to move forward in absolute forgiveness, and spoke “the forgiveness of all, lies in your ability and willingness to forgive.”
There are so many forces of Love assisting us in this grand transmutation cycle. More Earth vessels are needed to hold space here for the higher frequency solutions to become tangible. We must be willing to surrender attachments to the ways we think it should go. Love is present in both sides of the divide. Consider the figure most heinous to you, is playing an esteemed and necessary role that is a catalyst for major changes.
I choose to pray for the highest outcome for ALL instead of a limiting narrative that may not lead to that end. I voted according to my soul’s guidance instead of any fear paradigm or virtuous shaming. I will accept whatever comes as an opportunity to serve Love. The age of Transparency is upon us, and I choose to move forward in unwavering focus and faith.
A September of Spiritual Integrity
As political divisiveness heats up in the collective, it becomes imperative to maintain integrity in all new earth foundations and creations. All that remains to be seen and revealed is relatively unfolding in perfect timing and understanding to each. These times require faith, but the only way to truly know we are effectively anchoring the higher frequencies here on earth, is to tap into our own divine connection inside.
Everyone has a story. Everyone has a purpose. Everyone has an intrinsic value and connection to the source of life.
Everyone has a unique perspective and experience of the events they witness and participate in collectively. Diversity serves creation in this way. This can be seen in nature, with every species and life form contributing to the balancing and harmonization of life.
We serve life’s design best when we adhere to our own. Our instructions and drive come from our higher guidance inside, which can be muddled and thwarted if we are only looking outward for direction and protection.
The Age of Aquarius, is the age of ascension, is the age of transmutation, which consequently is the age of gaslighting and delusion in the lower limited dimensional realms of perception. Humanity will continue to see the futility and deceit in many of its foundational structures of belief and governance. A story is only ever a part of a truth; the moment we begin to describe and define an experience, we lose its scope in perspective and possibility.
As we rise in consciousness, we transcend duality; not because it’s wrong or bad, in fact we lose the restrictive stronghold of these descriptions altogether, but because we have a deeper understanding of the purpose comparison and contrast serves in the depth of experience and expression. We come to appreciate the contemplation of opposites as a necessary balancing component in determining what is best for the whole.
While we are obsessed with winning and losing and see success as a demonstration of dominance and superiority, we are fractured inside and out. Where we lay blame and responsibility, we remain impotent. Where we attempt to control or fix others, we avoid the unexpressed and unresolved parts of ourselves.
We stand on the precipice of real change. We can no longer be dazzled by ideologies that create harm and dehumanization in practical application. The world is purging the energy of all these thoughtforms, along with the weight of their consequences evidenced in historical catastrophe.
What is the human story?
Many have identified universal themes and strivings, existing across all ages, cultures, and doctrines. When we take the time to see past the surface differences and get to the heart of the matter, which at its core is shared by all, we discover an understanding and wisdom that comes from empathy, not pity. We are moved to do more than bear witness. We are compelled to initiate profound changes in ourselves and our lives, to embody the possibility of a world without hate, even in the face of it. It starts with a ripple of remembrance, and ripples lead to waves that crash ashore, changing even the hardest landscapes over time.
We are all ripples sharing the same ocean.
We are called at this time to assume our power and creatorship with integrity and practicality. We must answer to the call inside us, not to the pressures of external agendas. Energy doesn’t lie. Beware of those telling you what you want to hear. The actionable results are always clear.
What world would you like to live in? It will require you to build it inside yourself first, acting in accordance and integrity with it every step of the way. Things of quality are an investment of time and attention. I was imbued with the quality of devotion this month during one of my meditations. It was a beautiful transmission, and once received, I realized how much that aspect is absent in modern culture.
What are you devoted to? What do you love that surpasses your immediate ego gratifications and complaints? Where does your life have meaning? Where are you unwilling to compromise yourself? Devotion is a living essence and practice; it’s not just how we feel or think we love something or someone. Devotion is a living aspect of divine love.
We are divine love.
We are in a phase of undressing and discarding in limitation and illusion all that we perceived ourselves to be. We have had centuries of identification with the things required of us to survive in a fallen realm. We see our wounds as our nature, forgetting the light of our true origin.
As the earth shifts, where we place our attention and allegiance matters. We must come to terms with our own darkness to see its machinations in the world that we create. We can only free ourselves and shine our light to inspire home in others. Love does not force, censor, manipulate, or shame us into compliance. There is no faking connection for those that can feel what is real.
September brought me back to the place of my heart’s visions. There is an island I visit that feels like heaven to me. The night before I traveled there physically, I dreamt of visiting an island shaped like a heart. There I joined an older male shaman, and we were addressing a giant tree in a tall grassy plain. We each went about our business of setting up sacred space and prayer. I sat on the ground to connect and felt the place respond in a vibrancy. The ground began to hum and shake, and as it vibrated there were seed pods jumping that had fallen from the tree. I was guided to consume them and delighted in connecting to the tree and eating its seeds. I woke extremely activated and excited. When I later made it to the physical island, the transmission of devotion came through.
I am committed to anchoring heaven on earth. This is not some philosophical utopian dream; my body along with many all over the planet, are receiving and holding the higher frequencies and constructs to assist in earth integration. This requires a surrendering of all in its way. All on earth are undergoing a profound transformation. Knowing this helps us be patient with the messy process everyone is in.
We each carry our own version of the trials of the human experience. We are here to transmute our poisons. What we transform in ourselves, we do for the earth and our ancestry.
In previous years, I was focused on transmuting the venom of snake. It took some time to unravel the abuses of sexual power in my life. It is a complicated and multifaceted issue that crossed incarnations and generations. We are living some of its perversions collectively now. I feared deeply real intimacy and connection, not seeing for a long time how much I was in a default defense setting. It takes time to feel safe enough to go to these places inside to restore divine templates of operation. Walls are coming down for us all, and I can say now it is possible to face the unknown in anticipation instead of trepidation.
When dealing with venom, the poison is in the cure. It’s owning it in all its forms inside yourself and your story, and mastering yourself in consideration of it, that empowers and protects you in its external presence in the world.
This month I was brought to another poison in my lineage, this time in the form of spider. In dreamtime, I was laying down and aware of two tiny golden spiders that were crawling on me. I watched with curiosity and affection. I was not afraid initially, but when I looked up, I realized I was in my grandmother’s house. My father was there telling me they were poisonous, and I then felt fear for my grandma. I picked one up to put it outside, but it resisted being placed on the steps. As it leapt, I begrudgingly dropped a brick to kill it. I missed and it bit me on my left ring finger. My hand started swelling in lumps as I felt the poison and panic spread. My father said there was a doctor up the street and before I woke, he was telling me not to worry, the Dr. has the remedy and “it is done.”
I woke knowing it was something significant. The left side of my body was sore, especially from the hip down. I called to check on my grandmother, and her left leg was in pain. This is a chronic issue for her, and I realized there was an underlying energy at play. I began to work on myself energetically, and tapped into a feeling of powerlessness in life as a woman. There was a denigration of woman’s role as a creator handed down, not necessarily through familial relations, but more of religious doctrine. There was a pervasive belief in self deprecation and dependency on a male dominated ideology. It is not consciously expressed or recognized in religion negatively, because it is just accepted as the order of things. Feeling and questioning it is often sacrilege, along with communicating other unexpressed and suppressed needs and desires. This was a big issue for me. I still struggle to express personal needs without discomfort. There is guilt attached to receiving or asking for things. I observed this as a hardwired issue in this side of the family, and was grateful to acknowledge and address it.
The spider is a creator with power and credibility in the web of life. Spider venom can signify abusing our creative power, or as I experienced it, denying, suppressing, or fearing it. Many of us are afraid to assume the head position of our creations. We may have been taught it is blasphemous, but I’ve come to learn it is part of our divine responsibility. This is not an arrogant, “I rule the world,” position. It is living as an expression or facilitation of our higher nature, which is always in sync with the Creator of All, and in service of the highest good.
It is taking responsibility for the energies we assume, consume, relate, and create with here. We are not here to be weak followers of the loudest and mightiest of women/men; we are here to be a demonstration of divine love in unique form and action.
This may seem like a grandiose position, but in truth, true leaders and creators are humble in nature. It has been handed down that loving yourself is selfish, but one cannot truly love another from an empty well. This position has encouraged the system of scarcity and dependency that we see in large scale operation today. Love is unlimited and unconditional, and we are rewiring ourselves to accommodate and create from this truth.
We are one love. As we grow in understanding and awareness, we prioritize vibe over tribe.
Tribal separations, conflicts, grudges, and allegiances are surfacing to be addressed in all. The mind and body hold these ancestral constructs rooted in fear and survival experiences on an unconscious level. Some of what we perceive as fact is a matter of choice. It doesn’t feel that way until we are brought to challenge or see our lives from a completely new vantage point. This is what is being introduced to humanity now; we are being shown what is behind the wizard’ s curtain. Nothing was or is as it seems from a limited perception point.
As we shift our energy, we align to new people or circumstances vibrating at our frequency in similarity. We can lovingly embrace these changes, without feeling guilt or obligation to what was. Love is freedom and knows that every person and situation is exactly where it needs to be in the grand scheme of things. This is an energetic truth; energy does not lie.
What we resist in ourselves, persists as a challenge or blind spot in our reality. As we process the energy we hold inside from traumas, abuses, or mistakes, we experience more peace and calm with outer circumstances that seemed to trigger us so much mentally and emotionally. Make peace with yourself and all elements of your story, and you will take the missteps and misunderstandings of others less personally. You will also see and circumvent them more effectively.
Love recognizes itself in all forms.
Love encourages forgiveness as a mechanism of freedom and emotional liberation.
Love asks us to go higher, to create new outcomes and options that transcend the loops and chains of past and present polarities.
Expansion requires us to let go. We fear losing circumstances or people in our changes, but it occurs most often as shifts in our perceptions of them. Old ideas, stories, identities, and beliefs give way to a greater understanding. They can be of others, of our world, or ourselves. We become more not less, ever aware of our connection to the source of all life.
When we allow things to be different and new, and are open to not knowing, we experience life differently. When we allow ourselves to be new, we enter spaces previously unexplored and get intimate with life in ways that bypass the mind’s tendency to judge and defend.
Heaven is a frequency more than a location. We don’t always perceive clearly what we are looking at with limited eyes and heavy hearts.
What part of heaven are you inspired to dream into being? What are you committed to offering the earth? Where can you invite the essence of devotion into your life, and love more for the sake of loving instead of the expectation of receiving?
The love of creation is not daunted by any misunderstanding or misuses of its intent. Love is where everything rises and falls ultimately, regardless of the ride. Love is all in and will see all things through. There is power where the focus meets the flow, uninhibited by doubts and distractions that seek to disrupt its evolutionary impulses.
Humanity is restoring its proper relationship and use of power. This is a restructuring occurring inside us as we increasingly embody our light, that disrupts the external systems reflectively and collectively. The best position in these changes, is to find our flow inside, allowing it to love, guide, and uplift us in sync with the higher will in operation.
From this place, there is no misinformation or manipulation. Truth is something deeply held and known; it may first be perceived in the heart, but it is radiant throughout our entire being. We must go beyond the fearful confines of the lower mind and its limitations, to allow the technology of our vessel to fully come online. We are the technology and instruments of divine grace, and deepening into this knowing as a living embodiment of our light is our best evolutionary path forward during a planetary ascension cycle.
Know and own yourself in your true worth, and the universe will respond with circumstances in kind.
Happy Autumn! May you be blessed with new opportunities and insights for your Fall journey!
I felt beautiful waves of peace and bliss flowing through on the autumnal equinox. These influxes of energy shift things in the physical realm in ways that may appear destructive at first, but are instruments of the earth’s changes and harmonization too.
Trust all is falling into place. 🍁🎃🙏
The Eve of Innocence
August has remained hot in both temperature and temperament.
Fire destroys.
Fire purifies.
Fire ignites.
We are taught to fear intensity and destruction, but both are agents of creation in eternity’s game. Up on the chopping block are old beliefs, narratives, stereotypes, illusions, faulty foundations, and restrictive limitations. This occurs within and without; the world is a mirror reflection and manifestation of the energy we are running and supporting. Those caught up in victimization and blame, are only reinforcing their own prisons of manipulation, shame, and same.
As explosive as things can happen and change on a dime, there is also the void and detachment experienced in what I call the ‘in-between times.” Such is the way of expansion, contraction, and integration.
As I released and transformed toxic and abusive energies of the feminine in the last few months, I was then brought to reclaim my true feminine power.
This surfaced as usual in the dreamtime. I was chosen along with a few other women to pair with dragons. I watched the other women one by one match and connect with their dragon, some resulting in injury. The last woman before me fell from a great height and crashed on the ground next to me. I ran. I was apprehensive at first, but I was terrified as it became real. I went to pick up my children and fled, only to find myself at the edge of a cliff face to face with a giant, magnificent, and black iridescent queen. The dragon hovered in flight before me and I saw myself in her, along with the offer being made to me.
I woke in a state of excitement and revelation. I had connected to a white dragon energy in me before, easily recognizing its benevolence and goodwill toward me. Trauma and sorrow had separated us for a time, but when that was reconciled, the white became an overarching guardian and higher self always present. This darker dragon encounter was unexpected. As I connected to her, she was unmasking the fear I held of my power, specifically my feminine power.
I have done the work to repair the distortions and disgraces I carried forth for some time. Will I embody HER restored fullness and faith? Will I create and respond accordingly? Will I forgive all trespasses, and demonstrate the power of divine presence, acceptance, and unconditional love?
To myself I said YES.
To my universe I decreed it is so.
I was blessed to have my husband home for this occasion. With him I then experienced a new level of openness in expression and depth. Through him I was shown where I was still uncomfortable with simple moments of vulnerability.
Where I still hid or avoided eye contact as a default.
Where I struggled to receive a compliment.
Where I still didn’t believe I was worthy.
But this time I listened. I held myself open, reverted my eyes, learned to simply say thank you, and allowed myself to FEEL it.
I stumbled a little but was held accountable lovingly and patiently by myself and him. This small gesture ended up being a profound shift for me. I realized how much I often avoided being seen or accepted being loved.
When I went back into the astral realm that night, I encountered a thawed-out freezer in my house, with a black iridescent snake nesting on dozens of black iridescent eggs. They looked like hematite. Next to them was a mallard duck. I instantly panicked and slammed the top of the freezer back down. My mind was racing with fear for the duck. I felt the fear but decided I needed to open it to explore it more, and lifted the lid as I woke.
As I rose, so much feeling came through. I perceived fears and beliefs that said being an empowered woman, means I need to sacrifice my vulnerability. There were thoughts that said innocence and naivete were something you had to trade in or let go of to “grow up.” There were fears of success, and judgments about sexual power being punitive, shameful, or dangerous. There were many statements and scripts revealing themselves for clearing. I realized I had opened a space that not only helped me release restrictions, but it contained treasures. There were eggs that were waiting to be birthed. New experiences of intimacy and relation available for me. It wasn’t my vulnerability that was being sacrificed. The duck was safe and sound. It was the false stories and beliefs that I held about myself and others, long accumulated from ancestry and history that kept me closed off in protection and limitation.
Our time here is ultimately a love story with our self. We will receive challenges and messages through others, but if we focus on our energy, our reaction, our emotion, and our response as the culprits of its creation, we are working with the ingredients of transformation and mastery of our experiences here.
Humanity is healing and restoring its proper relationship and usage of power. We are seeing in our collective the imbalances that create illusions and misuses that enslave masses. As we process long suppressed emotions and fear, we will arrive at a more neutralized clarity.
Each receives according to their own karmic and cosmic responsibility. There are many stories dying and seeking energetic survival. What resonates with your spirit?
Stories have enemies, scapegoats, smoke, and mirrors. Spirit has efficacy in eternity.
Extreme religion shames and guilts compliance in others based on a doctrine of inescapable judgment and sin. Hierarchies accrue wealth while convincing you the rich doesn’t get into heaven. Extreme Progressiveness also deals in hypocritical intolerance and shaming. Billionaires convince you to need less, shaming you for killing the planet they pollute. They will sell you the remedy in science that the churches sold in indulgences.
Beware of seeking a savior sold to you by those censoring and perverting the truth.
“Believing all the lies that they’re telling ya
Buying all the products that they’re selling ya
They say jump and you say how high
You brain dead?
You got a fuckin bullet in your head?
Just victims of the in-house drive-by
They say jump you say how high” ….. Rage Against the Machine
There are truths in ancient history and texts, but we fight over the minutia and details while ignoring the fruit that their systems bear. Assume everything you are being sold is at best a partial truth, at most often a lie. What is your direct observation? What does your gut and heart tell you? Where can you take your power back and focus your energy and efforts on things that are beneficial to your life and that of others?
A group or party’s platform should not rest on the hatred and vilification of another person or people. Hate is hate regardless of where it comes from and where it is aimed. We are in the age of accountability, where there is transparency and quicker returns on what we put out. Choose your energetic entanglements wisely.
We are here to take our power back from these illusions and institutions to recognize our ability as creators and contributors to all life. Unplug from the show and show up for what is real in your life. Progressive oppression is not the answer to healing a history of religious or regal persecution. Follow the money trail, and see that the majority is still left fighting each other with empty hands.
Save yourself.
Love yourself.
Believe in yourself and your worthiness, regardless of what shape you are born in. The remedy is inside; learning to love and own ALL of you and your unique expression without needing to modify or sterilize your potency.
You don’t need to be fixed by anyone outside you. Love yourself as is, not because of what group you are in, what you look like, or what you believe. You are the only one that needs to feel it and recognize your value, to authenticate and live a life you no longer want to escape or control.
We are shifting our own toxic masculine and feminine aspects and patterns. We are owning our emotions, our behaviors, our choices, and our outcomes. Seeking to control and manipulate others or our environment is rooted in fear, defense, and survival. We don’t need to take from others to do well. We don’t need others to be less successful for us to succeed.
Look at the stories and framework you are running in your reality. Your beliefs, your choices, your connections, and your commitments are creating and sustaining your perceptions and results. How much energy are you giving to a person or party you hate? How much are you disempowering yourself by making another responsible for what you have or don’t have? How much are you committed and working on your mastery? Your focus? Your wellness?
How in tune are you with your body and what it is telling you about what you are investing in, in your time, health, relationships, and information? If you are numbing out or accepting another’s worldview or version of truth, you will secure your position with another’s fate.
Love is ALL of it. It will outlast the smaller conflicts and conquests. Consider positioning yourself in what outlines and outlasts temporal creation.
I comforted two mothers that lost their children this month. As our hearts were forced open in the passing, none of the former differences, distortions, mistakes, or misunderstandings mattered. All is reconciled in love’s final testament.
Where can we remember LOVE as our nature and focus on our higher calling? Humanity is entering the eve of its innocence restored, where all held against love is seen and returned in an act of wholeness not annihilation. All is sacred. All is valued and made right in love. Where can love awaken in more hearts? Where can it be demonstrated in more circumstances? Where can it find an expression through you? In your home? In your culture or community? In your work? In your part of the country and world?
As more commit to LOVE fully regardless of distractions and detractions, it grows as a palpable solution and expression here. It surpasses labels and appearances. It has a place in many expressions and stories. It brings remembrance and unity to things long exiled.
Love is patient and kind. Love already holds the outcome it seeks to create so it allows all in the way to pass. Humanity is building a new foundation that is secured as each assumes their part and power. Most will choose differently and respond kindly as they feel safe to do so. Let’s be the reason someone feels safe and inspired. 🦋
May we take heart more in what unites us at this time. 🦅💞✌️
Forging Freedom
I started July on an island in Florida, which is one of my versions of paradise on earth. Being on a large body of water is always expansive for me. I am often swimming inside even while on land, ever aware of the flow of energy streaming in motion. It helps me to let go of any internal burdens or blocks, and to just be present. I feel happy and held in harmony with whatever arises.
The 4th interrupted that peace with an accident and injury to a couple of people in our party that required medical intervention. It was a serious situation that required my full attention, but also an opportunity to hold a space of calm and trust in the face of potential trouble.
As always, I was tracking energies and shifts in the dreamtime throughout the experience. While in the hospital, I was clearing dark energies and parasites that are attracted to illness. Once I made it out of the hospital, I was taken through learning exercises to master turbulent waters.
I was in a boat in my dream, navigating stormy seas. I felt the correlation in my boat between fearful thoughts and the capsizing of my boat. As I entertained thoughts of fear, they brought feelings. As I felt the fear, my boat would rock uncontrollably, exacerbating all elements of the situation. I was then reminded that neutrality in thought combined with emotional stability, are what stabilizes the boat in the storm.
As I chose to let go of the fear in all its forms, the boat calmed. I then experienced myself in a steady boat that easily surfed chaotic waves. I understood I was not there to control the surface of the ocean, but to embody the mastery of its overall depths in me. From this position I can hold the strength and position of the ocean, where all disturbances are ultimately resolved once they’ve played out their various purposes for those involved.
We often feel the pressure to “fix things” for others. When we connect to the depths of our ocean, however, there is trust in the energy and appropriateness of all its manifestations and opportunities. We realize also how much energy is wasted when given to situations where we have no power or authority. We are not here to control everything, especially things designed for the empowerment or growth of others. When we step in to fix, we are also implying we don’t acknowledge that person’s capability or sovereignty.
The feminine force of creation allows. She holds all in their truth and higher potential. She loves them as such, knows them as such, and holds them accountable as such, not in judgement or blame, but in compassion and love. This force exists in all and is being restored to its proper balance and station on earth. As she rises and heals to unify with an upgraded masculine force, true autonomy and freedom will reign.
In this time on earth, we are being called to remember our origin and position in the ocean of consciousness. As emissaries of what is deep and true, we are being guided to right our boats in any superficial stormy weather. What is real is undisturbed. What is truth cannot be destroyed by lies or hate. What is shaky will only be righted by love, which is the truth that surpasses all in scope and time.
July continues to shake things up in divisiveness and fear. As the frequency of existence on earth rises, it will unveil and unlock illusions. It will reveal false identities and expose underlying truths and intentions. This is occurring inside us, mirrored outside us in response to our energy signature. Some will identify with the “pot calling the kettle black,” based on their inherited predispositions as a pot. Others will take the position of the kettle in the same fashion, failing to see the similarities and resonance shared between the two.
The intense blame and fear mongering is a distraction. It is also often met and matched by both sides in a game long played that has disempowered and subjugated humanity inside. As the intensity and transparency increases, we are given the keys to unlock our prisons. Will we see the narratives and organizations for what they are? Will we see the fruits of their labors? Will we continue to entertain and entrain ourselves to paradigms of fear and doom, or will we recognize our power as creators and forge new possibilities?
We must first realize our power to choose. Our power lies in responding in new ways to old problems. We can respond to hate with love, ignorance with compassion, and fear with freedom. Many of us chose to demonstrate personal freedom in a time of panic, prejudice, and mandates. Many of us don’t need an apology for the past, or permission to live free.
Freedom is an inside job, forged in every thought, choice, action, and attitude. Seek the places inside where you are willing to compromise that in the face of fear and recognize the game that is played. It is an underlying current in everything and easily addressed externally once you meet and face it in yourself honestly.
The lower fear realms block us from our light. They entangle our focus and energy in darker dense realities that stagnate or obscure our higher perception faculties. They hook us into lower frequency pain and emotional constructs. Fear denies our magic. Fear creates confusion and doubt in our ability to trust the higher forces always at work.
We are all connected to fear. It is part of humanity’s evolutionary experience on earth. True freedom comes from addressing our fear inside, and becoming aware of the way it influences us, often from a subconscious level. We can give it many reasons, justifications, characteristics, and assignations, but at its core it’s the same, and as a frequency it can be dispelled and absorbed by its higher expressions of love. When we hear things like, “love conquers all fear,” it is expressing an energetic and etheric truth, not just a philosophical or moral concept.
How do you respond to fear? Are you an emissary and embodiment of fear or love? We are being brought to our depths personally and collectively during this phase of creation.
These times are not for the faint of heart.
Are you willing to compromise your heart for fear? To justify murdering or harming others in fear and judgement? Understand that nothing is apart from you. What you seek for and send to others, you will call upon and resonate with yourself. Gods worshipped and sought for vengeance, reigned over those embroiled in unending conflict and retribution. A boat set on violence and punishment will not attract or settle on peaceful waters.
Some here are still set on experiencing power plays and war. This is nothing new. Each will determine their investment and engagement with systems and narratives that are in desperation and decline. There is energy being transmuted for all in the process. We are living in times of karmic resolution for the ascension of the planet into a higher frequency bandwidth of creation. All unprocessed dense energy will be shifted and lifted into the higher for a new earth experience. This is in tandem with universal changes and cycles, nothing is separate.
Collectively we will evolve beyond the limitation and exploration of duality, with its seemingly opposite poles and contradictions that encourage conflict and suffering when plagued with misunderstanding and fear. We are addressing the residue of many cataclysmic and catastrophic events inside, and being given the opportunities and ingredients to alchemize changes in the way we move forward “outside.” There is great purpose and meaning discernible in everything encountered for those that have the eyes to see and the ears to hear.
You are responsible for what is being called up in you.
What are your fears?
What are your challenges?
Where are you participating in prejudice, hate, hurt, or harm? Where are you limiting yourself in narratives of low self-worth or victimization? These are not questions to induce blame, they are opportunities for liberation.
We are solely responsible for our choices and creations. We are growing through our direct experiences and responses. If we are living according to another’s script or mindset, we are holding ourselves back. We know our truth. It speaks to us and through us. We are connected to the source of life, here to fulfill our own unique expression and exploration of love. We must set aside external fears and distractions to know our own light and purpose.
We are coming home to ourselves. We are learning to stabilize our vessels with the deep ocean of creation. What we commit to in love, create with love, and share with love is an expression of God. We are not asked to conform or perform some ritual to become worthy, we need only live authentically from our spirit.
Our spirit is not in conflict with another’s spirit. Our spirit recognizes its existence and likeness in all things. We fracture ourselves from our spirit when we harm ourselves or another.
Humanity is evolving to experience its unity with all life. It is being purged of all its distortions and delusions. We all have a personal journey and process to honor. Our hearts are opening to guide us home. All will return to love in due time.
Love is the substance of dreams, seams, and stars. Love holds us together while our minds seek to tear us apart. Love is responsive, intelligent, and restorative. Love only needs an invitation and opening to transform the most seemingly hopeless situations. I shared my personal journey on the path of love and how it transformed my life in my book TRUE LOVE NOT LIKE IN THE MOVIES. It is the truth I lived that helped test and forge the mettle in me. It is how I have come to stand firmly in the face of deceptions and perversions of what I know to be real, personally and globally.
As our circumstances continue to change and our opinions clash on earth, remember your love. Be willing to surrender the pettiness, worries, and conflicts to love. Seek the spaces where all come together. Trust love’s design and depths to see all things through. Know the truth from your heart and seek the wisdom of your direct experiences. I travel all over the country and meet the kindest and most sincere people all along the way. It’s time to invest and build on what is still inherently good.
Be willing to be a demonstration of LOVE’s goodness. Ingratiate yourself to love and let love carry you through.
Trust you will always have what you need to face your trials. They are crafted and aligned by the higher parts of you.
We are never alone. We are never left without an opening to our higher guiding light. We are continuously calibrating to the transformative energies at hand. As I follow my guidance, I continue to unlock aspects of myself in higher realms.
Trust your feelings. Your body knows when you are in the presence of lies. Your gut knows when a person, path, or story is not for you. They don’t have to be wrong and an enemy, because they aren’t for you. Let your truth be yours. Honor and live it; that is enough.
When we learn how to meet and love the darkest and hardest parts of ourselves, we are better able to be present with them in others without rocking or wrecking our boat. We can then heal and attract new situations from a higher vantage point. We can forgive and love others, even when they seek to harm. We are more aware of the mechanics of the situation and are better able to extricate ourselves from it easily.
Fear is an energy seeking a host. It knows our weaknesses. It goes to the places we believe ourselves to be small and powerless. It lives in our excuses, doubts, traumas, and stories. It is marketed and sold to us daily to capture our allegiance. It can be challenged. It can be cast off. It can be fully embraced and accepted, and then traded in for truth.
It can be introduced to love and made whole. Fear is only part of a story, a perspective, or a possibility, and it is usually misguided. Your heart always knows what is true for you, and what your role is in a situation.
May your heart be filled with love to overcome all fear. May it bless and guide you for the days ahead…💜
Solstice to Self
As the light intensified approaching the summer solstice in June, it highlighted for me any lingering old hang-ups, stories, relationships, or beliefs that were ready for transmutation. We are all in this process ongoing in a planetary ascension cycle, but there are rotations and rhythms where peaks can be felt and utilized to embody more source energy.
As I remove various layers of attachment, I am sometimes surprised at how much of my energy is returned to me. We are often connected and invested energetically in things that we are largely unaware of in their impact or detriment to ourselves. We are entrained to see or experience life and people a certain way very young, and our modes of operation are comfortable even when they are destructive.
We often accept very bleak expectations and ideas about things through religious or political doctrine for example and allow ourselves and others to be minimized to maintain our internal sense of order and validity with our worldview. We see the degeneracy but instead of changing it, we choose a side of it that we term as “less evil.” Such is life in the realm of survival and poverty consciousness; justifications and determinations forged in fear, secured in manipulation and ignorance.
The weight of these denser energies can get convoluted and oppressive. One of my childhood friends ended her life at the beginning of the month, and as I prayed for her transition, I could see her fight to free herself of a black tarpit of suffering. Her freedom was assured to me, but she will process the totality of her earth experiences as part of her exit from physical incarnation. She will then be able to perceive the beauty of her soul in the ways we all perceived it in her during our time together on earth.
The shock of this brought back remnants of 2014 and the loss of my brother. I was better able to move through it this time because he visited me the night before I found out about her and comforted me in a dream. I was grieving while he held me and I awoke knowing there was something coming, but that I was loved and supported beyond death. I know through him that we exist beyond, and I am comforted in knowing she is not alone in her process now.
This summer solstice pushed me deeper into owning myself. As I was called to process and further shift the distorted masculine template in May, I was brought to end my relationship with the toxic feminine in June. I have been refining these forces in me for a long time now. It has required that I end or withdraw support from some relationships at times, and that I rewrite and rework my scripts and perspectives of my creation at others.
Some of these shifts are simply from incompatibility in frequency; some are from needing boundaries, and about learning to choose myself and my guidance first and foremost. Differences of opinion and perspective are great for expansion purposes, but if they are utilized and intended to keep you small or submissive, they must go. We are not here to serve another from a place of diminishment. True service is an act of love not bondage.
The earth has experienced cycles of time in both ascending and descending frequency. In denser times, it was harder for beings to become aware or active in their own source connection. It became common practice to take from others, knowingly and unknowingly. This was especially true for the “nobility,” and we still see this shamelessly displayed in our authoritarian class today. The “spiritual” community is also full of healers and masters operating from the old ways. There is a sense of entitlement in powering up that often allows them to justify using other people’s energy for what they deem is the highest good.
I have personally been approached many times, in both the physical and astral realms, by people trying to take my energy. I marvel at how I am sometimes given signs preceding these events. I am often sent animals as messengers. There are agents of dark and light forces, and vultures often alert me to dark witchery. The day before the solstice a vulture touched down in front of my vehicle and scooped up the carcass of a squirrel. It came with the feeling that something was poking around, and to take note.
That night I encountered an attempt at stealing my sexual energy from a friend while in a healing meditation for sleep. I easily repelled the encounter and was grateful for the validation. I had been feeling incongruency and underlying ill intent from her for some time but kept talking myself out of it in the spirit of being nice and understanding of differences in friendship. Once that boundary is approached and attempted to be crossed without my consent, however, the channel and contact are closed by me for good.
As I went on with my morning, I came across another two sets of vultures, six in total, on my morning drive. Both were consuming racoons, which symbolized trickery and deceit for me in my old story. I was further validated, and grateful to the vulture energy for showing me what was being purified in my life. I have stayed the course despite doubting myself and my worth at times. The path gets murky and is only clear once you find and follow your soul signature in the waves. We are not here to suffer or serve in obligations to others. Know your energy and trust your feelings, because many will feast on you with a smile on their face and conviction in their own lies.
This solstice brought me to a renewal in trusting myself, my path, my guidance, and my heart. As I closed this out, I received a surge of my upgraded feminine energy and a new, more unified configuration with my masculine.
When the feminine is not being manipulated, feels safe, and is vibrant in her power, she allows the masculine in. She opens to him, receives him, loves him, and fills his cup. This was experienced more deeply inside the self and mirrored in my partner. What occurred inside, attracted a physical culmination and consummation outside. When we unify this energy in love, it changes the very field and nature of our existence.
Love is the unifying agent of transformation. We are not healing or transcending the dual forces inside us by denying, hating, or over identifying with them. We cannot become whole by side-stepping, forcing, or vilifying. We are expressions of love, and it is in loving and seeing things exactly as they are, that we are better able to right ourselves in this world. Inner stability in love precludes harmony in unity with all.
Reclaiming more of myself allowed me to connect to a higher perspective of who I am beyond these confines. When my energy is not entangled in the opinions and narratives of others, especially those that keep me small, I am able to perceive and conceive further.
My dreams are bringing me to my nature as light. They are helping me understand what I chose here, why I am experienced and perceived in certain ways, and my ability to be unlimited or undefined by either. A new level of joy, prosperity, peace, and possibility has been anchored; we are in the stars as much as we are in the dirt, with no need to reach or seek.
Our sexual energy is our life force is our light. It is a resource that is heavily targeted, harvested, distorted, and misused here. When we energetically rewire our bodies and systems to allow it to flow expansively and lovingly in service to our design and purpose in this life, the potential is limitless.
Humanity is being pushed to its limits and vices to recognize the chains. We are being shown where our energy is being used, manipulated, and sought after for destructive purposes. Will we choose a new template of experience that supersedes aligning to the lesser evil? Will we each do the inner inventory and commit to our mastery, without needing to shame, blame, or take from anyone else to succeed? Can we be honest with ourselves and our relationship to power? Are we looking for clout or power over others, instead of empowering ourselves to live authentically and divinely guided from our own source connection? Does our need to be right overshadow our ability to be compassionate?
What if we forego the current external dilemmas for a bit, and work toward fortifying our inner compass and direction? It’s hard to hear your inner voice, while screaming and competing on the social pulpit. Your life is about you. There are no satisfying answers or saviors outside your creation and purpose. As long as we seek external power, we evade internal peace.
In an unlimited field of energy, we need not be paupers either. We can live spiritually rich and well. We can respect others in their agency and choices without having to feel bad or responsible for them. Energy does not lie or victimize; it manifests in response to matching frequency and similarity. Love allows and affords freedom, knowing things are always balanced out and met accordingly.
What we choose and invest in, we sustain. We are helping create the things we often say we despise through our attention and emotional investment. When we connect and create an exchange, it places us into an agreement and entanglement. We may think we are higher or better, but we are engaged in the same. As we grow in energy awareness and mastery, we are more selective in the things that occupy our space, time, and effort. We refine and focus our energy on the things we wish to create, experience, and embody.
We are being brought to our bondage to break free if we so choose. This can be done in silence. We don’t have to prove anything. We don’t need others to see our progress or our virtue. When we are radically ourselves and embodying our own light, we are not threatened by the changing and conflicting tides of propaganda or opinion. The higher frequency fields are being anchored and implemented on earth through many. Many that won’t seek credit or divulge the details of what’s encountered daily. Many that process energies that are not their own. Many that see and are called into the most horrific things but go on to hold and lever the highest outcome for humanity.
You are one and many, serving the many by mastering the one. To be selfless is not noble if it is done in an effort to escape the responsibility and truth of self. We are ever being called to check ourselves, to balance humility appropriately with love. As we continue to integrate more of our dimensional selves, we must still honor and hold space for the sovereignty and dignity of others in varying stages and phases. If we are consumed and fighting what we think is incompatible with another, we are failing to recognize its resonance with something seeking resolution inside ourselves.
Our sexual energy has been marketed and monetized in ways that decreased its value in the human market of consumption. It has been used to manipulate, dominate, and seduce us into enslavement masked as liberating and empowering practices. We are each being shown our relationship and position in this, and it is for us to decide how we will engage and exchange our sacred currency in the days ahead. We are unlimited in love and more powerful than the systems used to degrade and harness our potential. As our relationship models heal and upgrade to sacred sovereignty and reciprocity, we will have more at our disposal to improve the quality of life on earth for all.
I continue to choose and commit to the path love has set forth in me. I do so unapologetically because it in no way diminishes or harms another, knowingly or unknowingly. Every loss or redirection has only increased the love igniting and flowing through me. I know I am loved and supported, and it is safe to shine my light in a world in transition. I know I am enough and from this love all good things will attract and arise.
I know what I know because I live it.
Love has called on me to embody and put it to practice.
My effort and commitment are met and matched accordingly.
That is enough for me regardless of how it appears to another.
Happy Summer Soul-stice Blessings! May your light become brighter, clearer, and more refined and aligned to your heart’s destiny, and may you find home authentically in you 💞
Sprung Into Solar Fire
May came in with increasing streams of luxurious light. Solar flares are building in waves of illuminating intention and liberation. Even the night skies were expanded with access to aurora activity, inspiring and delighting many all over the world.
Light influxes help us purge blocks of lower frequency stagnation and limitation, to expand and embody more of our higher nature. WE ARE NATURE and need not fear the evolution of our planet and its position in the solar system. We also have kinship with the sun and cosmos. We are light at our core. Our light is intelligent and in sync with the changes underway, despite the ongoing fear propagated in many facets of our cultural constructs.
Our bodies often require rest in response to these events. Our higher mind asks us to surrender old limiting beliefs or attachments. Our hearts seek openings that require feeling and acknowledging what has built up inside us that we set aside to survive. Humanity is transcending foundational narratives. We are going from surviving to thriving in a higher field of experience that recognizes unity as a foundational principle of reality. For this new field of co-creation to be accessed, old survival energies must be sacrificed in the fire.
We are doing this individually and collectively. Because separation is an illusion, it is not necessary for all to expand at the same time. A smaller percentage of individuals accessing and birthing this frequency field on earth can uplift and hold space for many. We are already in sync on a higher level and need only tend to our personal gardens here. We are our purpose; our service arises naturally out of our authenticity.
I often think of awakening as undressing. We are whole in truth. We are simply removing layers of experience where we forgot our nature as the abiding love and source of all creation.
May helped me remove a foundational and ancestral distortion of my experience with men. As typical for me, this was evidenced in part in dreamtime. I had a series of dreams where I was engaging with violent men. In some, I was in relationship out fear and habit. I perceived and experienced my defensive postures and recognized them historically in many relations and situations.
Early experiences in childhood often imprint and condition the body to respond in ways that the mind is unconscious. Early situations of inescapable violation, for example, caused a freeze response to situations of potential harm. The margins of perceived threat widened over time, and the numbing became a state that was normal. As my awareness brought me the origins of this foundational belief, “MAN IS PREDATOR,” my body revealed its correlating stress and defense responses so I could intentionally process and rewire its default settings.
I additionally saw how I inappropriately felt shame and guilt for situations I was literally frozen in while enduring. How I often criticized and blamed myself as a means of expressing anger and frustration that I was unable to communicate externally then. I know my body was just protecting me. I made peace with it and held space for vulnerable and angry versions of myself from various time sequences. This was not as a victim party, but more in the vein of an empowering and liberating homecoming. I understood why I compromised myself in some situations that hurt. I also understood how I misjudged and projected negative assignations to many that were trying to love and connect to me. It was undressing another set of bars in a self-imposed prison.
After working with my psyche and body lovingly, steadily, and intentionally, I was visited by my earth angel Sonny in a dream. We were in a moving vehicle with a few family members, and he was mediating long overdue conversation. In it I was able to express things that I couldn’t as a child. I awoke knowing that this was healing a longstanding issue from my past. As I went into my body therapy in Hotworx, I unlocked the memory of a conversation I had as a child, that impacted me negatively and distorted my ability to be open and trusting with one side of my family. As I laid oracle cards down, I was shown I was healing more facets of my relationship with my masculine aspect.
That encounter was then followed by a house dream. I have written about them many times here, as I am often taken to see “myself” or my physical vehicle in this life in dreams symbolized as my house. What I initially noticed was how different my house was! The house was much brighter and lighter with a strong plant and floral presence. In the past I perceived purging cycles as me cleaning various parts of my house. This house was pretty clean, until I happened upon blood stains in a set of bedsheets. This was a smaller bed, and I knew it was not the one I have now. I began cleaning its trail and was later taken outside my house to see a house across the street where the people involved were waiting. I crossed the divide of the street and peacefully engaged. I woke understanding what was being addressed in me.
The culmination of these events built to a giant physical release and transmutation on the morning of May 18th. I am writing in its wake from a deep gratitude and awe at the spiral of light and all it unleashes in perfect understanding. Love is what awaits the assimilation of old stories, limitations, misunderstandings, and hardships. It’s a relief to let go.
It’s an expansion in joy to forgive.
It’s empowering to explore all of our depths and lovingly own them.
It’s not about who did what, but who we are in the face of everything when the ashes settle. It’s how we rise and respond after.
Once we are freed from lower frequency entanglements of belief, emotion, attachment, and story, we can perceive what we truly are despite our previous notions. We can see beyond the maze of illusion and navigate ourselves away from its snares of entrapment. We know how confusing and dangerous its trenches can be, and we have compassion for those still wandering in the maze. We know we are still wanderers in a new setting, no matter how much we think we have attained. We learn to trust we will know when we need to know, instead of trying to control the game or outcome.
If you have been blessed to have these pivotal shifts while aware of them, you know the road simply goes on. The practical still needs tending. Our bodies need patience, love, and care to transform long-held experiences and settings. Simplicity becomes a treasure. A simple perception shift can change the entire landscape of creation. It is designed to, and the light is facilitating these upgrades on Earth now.
So much of our experience is shaped by story. What stories are you moving forward with? Are you still running outdated stories from the past? Are you living in someone else’s story? Do you know it is possible to create and generate your own stories?
We are born into stories of our birth families, cultures, and sometimes lingering unresolved “past-life” influences. I use that word lightly because of its understood association, but there is really only NOW. The light is helping us resolve old stories to facilitate the birthing of a new phase of peace on Earth. This has been prophesied too, and the light is encouraging us to remember. We must believe peace is possible to invite it into our experience, otherwise we are reinforcing its absence and placing our energy in the conflicts. We must become a home and emissary for it.
There are many still enthralled by stories of conflict. There are core beliefs in old foundations of earth creation like “justice is an eye for an eye,” being worked through for example. We are witnessing a culmination of many conflicting foundations coming up for processing and resolution for a new platform to be available to all. This varies in each person, family, community, culture, religion, country, etc. We are each encouraged to look within. Where are our blind spots? Where do we blame? Where are we carrying dehumanizing or degrading narratives about others? About ourselves? Where are we projecting outward threats or prejudice due to our inner wounding?
If we want a new experience, we must begin by changing our own parameters and settings. It does not matter what others do; we are responsible for ourselves. What world do we wish to create? What will we contribute and demonstrate for our children? We are the creators of our story and our reality. It starts with us.
CREATION IS INNOCENT and we are her children. We are LOVE’s eyes, ears, and arms. How will we wield his power? The light is freeing us of our fight or flight armor and asking us to start living with conscious intention and responsibility. What would LOVE as you create? What would LOVE as you do?
May the light bless and keep you strong in the embrace and evolution of the sun’s glorious gaze!🌞💜
Evoking Eclipse Blessings
April sprung immediately from the rebirth of Easter in the center of an eclipse window. The lunar eclipse on March 25th pulled me out of sleep with my heart pounding. In its wake, I purged more of my heart’s wounding illuminated in detail in my sleep. Many dreams additionally showed me the physical steps that would follow to facilitate the resolution.
In several I was a queen partnered with a king. In one, I was in a time of war advising him to utilize compassion in the face of a threatening revolt. In another I was both an advisor and the queen, and I was performing a scan on my queen self, unveiling puppet strings, boobytraps, attachments, and other negative interfering energies/constructs. This allowed me to then address them physically in the form of blocks, misaligned relationships, and distorted narratives and imprints ready to be released.
I actually felt the shackles and cords surface in my body as they were able to be dismantled. Some of these mechanisms were part of situations I was aware of and working on for some time; some were imprinted from people and situations I would have not perceived harmful. As we expand, we just move beyond perceived limitations. We don’t have to see this as good or bad. We live in constructs of perception and density that allow us to grow through circumstances and experiences catered to our soul’s choices and evolution. We are designed to change stories, boundaries, and experiences. We are here to remember ourselves as unlimited love, and it gets easier as we release judgment.
Whatever we have put off in feeling and acceptance in the way of love eventually comes to call. Our perspective and approach greatly influence how we move through these cycles. If we work with ourselves lovingly and trust our place in life, it is less scary. As we allow ourselves to feel what we may have avoided or forgotten, the charge and reactivity in us diminishes over time. Once emptied and understood, a new choice and outcome become available. We no longer stay looped to the same, reminding and warning ourselves of what we fear will come to pass. We experience ourselves as having been there and done that, no thank you, and no need to repeat. We are wiser and less moved by any resurgence or reminder.
As love in form, we have perceived our separation from source awareness fearfully and painfully at times. When these experiences are compounded in ignorance, we have wounds that are often pervasive and disruptive. We have collectively forgotten our connection to life and our unity with all things. We often focus on our personal trials in a disempowered state, forgetting we are the creators of our reality.
This eclipse window brought me a gallery of experiences that involved different times, scenarios, and players in my life, but as I approached the solar eclipse on April 8th, I was shown they all sprouted from one underlying vein of distortion. Many doctrines refer to this phenomenon as a core wound or core belief. It is an underlying foundational energy that manifests many offshoots of perspective and experience.
I have experienced shame as long as I can remember. It has always been a backdrop of my identity. I can see now how many of my experiences have manifested from this feeling of worthlessness. No matter what I accomplished or was told, I could not connect to the good in me. I could not believe I was loveable. There were early childhood traumas seemingly validating these feelings in my young mind. Knowing they were wrong, doesn’t take away the experience of the feeling.
As I accept and allow this to be a part of my human experience, it has less effect on me. I spent a lot of my younger years running from pain and chasing highs in the external world. Operating from “If I accomplish this, I will have/feel that. If I have this, I will know I am that.” It never came to fruition in the ways I expected or desired of course. Ironically, I am far happier now having explored and embraced the darker depths of myself.
As I have allowed and processed the passage of all pains and negative projections, I know I am love. In my willingness to continually surrender to the greater forces operating in my life, I know I am loved. I realize my ignorance will always sell myself short. My fragmentation will limit my perspective often, but the need to be right can be surrendered too. I can forgive the betrayals or rejections of others, understanding they arose out of this foundational distortion. Ultimately, I come to see this as reflections of self-rejection and betrayal, and endeavor in forgiving myself. I commit to loving and honoring myself more, to re-establish a healthier core setting that shifts my reality over time.
Peace comes from living in unconditional love and awareness of self. What I perceive as disruptive is only reflecting something left unresolved or unexplored in me. If I shift my focus to my inner journey and commit to mastering my energy in all its distortions and contributions, I am less affected by the external instability. I know my job is to stabilize myself as a contribution.
This eclipse passage has helped me close a significant chapter of my past peacefully. I am relieved of thoughts and attachments that once seemed so important and detrimental. I have removed “villain” and “hero” from my story entirely, recognizing they are perspectives that are relative too. I realize the judgments of others were really reflecting my own, and that when I am deeply committed and solid in myself, they lack any power at all. I have reinforced my commitment to myself; I will love and sustain myself so thoroughly that it will be the only reality returned.
This is not done out of selfishness, because I recognize my connection to others and respect their sovereignty. I can love what I don’t agree with or fully understand. I also know I am responsible for my creations and not at the whim of any one else’s version of reality. I am still integrating parts of myself in a new way. Some of these aspects were ostracized and guarded against out of past hurt and fear, some are parts of me in other dimensions. As I prayed during this time, allies came with gifts.
One was a multicolored, iridescent dragon that immediately smoothed out my energy fields and lower four body system. It felt like reflective, rainbow shining layers or coats were painted on parts of me, sealing and protecting me in all dimensions. I was self-contained and sustained in a way, and any conflicting energy sent would be returned in a peaceful manner. The dragon let me know it would help others see their own reflection in me positively and help me move through any outer chaos with ease. I was reminded this is a dragon aspect of me, and that I need to remember the things I often see as higher guidance or beings, are often parts of myself in those dimensions. This is true for all. This is true for the earth energies too. The ocean always laughs at me when I thank her as a separate entity. We are the world.
As humanity evolves, it will transcend its attachment to a polarized and divisive reality. We will go beyond our perceived limitations and fragmentation in recognition of our place in the unified field of creation and awareness. This occurs in each as part of the one. As more choose to forgive and accept any opposition as part of themselves in a field of totality, resistance and conflict will give way to transmutation and transformation. We cannot change or heal what we deny, refuse, or oppose.
Love is encompassing and uplifting. Love is the glue that unites and ignites new creative openings. In love the two come together to create three; the three containing the essence of the two but expanding upon that union to present something of its own.
Love beholds us beyond our wounds of separation. Love knows where we outgrow the limitations in understanding and fear. Love remembers who we are and is patiently waiting for humanity to recognize itself.
When we are at war with ourselves, we are at war with others. When we dehumanize and disregard parts of ourselves, we do it to others. When we forgive ourselves, we do so with others. When we connect to the light in ourselves, we are then able to connect to it in others. We are not limited by any external opinions, judgments, or choices unless we so choose.
Those that fail to see the darkness in themselves, are easily snared by its existence and manipulation in “others.” They are unable to recognize how their wounds are exploited and weaponized. Their uncertainty in themselves perpetuates fear and perceived threats in their external reality. Meet all facets of yourself with acceptance and love. Only then can you truly find peace and compassion in a world in flux. You will then attract and reflect this in your reality and leave everyone to their own beautiful process and purpose. Everyone plays a unique part in the overall tapestry of life.
What humanity needs now is love.
What the world needs now is love.
This eclipse window concludes with a new moon, inviting us to start a new chapter in life in some way. What if we intend to create a reality based on love? What if we choose love as our guiding force and principle? Can we simply invite it, remember it, recover it, discover it, embrace it, breathe it, be it, and live it as ourselves?
New ways are being implemented now to transcend the stagnation and conflicts of old. Can LOVE find its home and ally in you?
Marching Into Spring
Spring cleaning came early for me. As I continued with my daily prayer procession, I increasingly made space inside for more of my authentic self to return. This showed up in so many ways inside and out; divine flow expanding in me, resulting in ease and flow in external relations and situations that had experienced periods of slight stagnancy or confusion.
More are awakening to the external illusions underpinning the old earth reality. This is a natural process that coincides with the illusions being unmasked and processed inside the self.
As we return to a state of sacred remembrance and embodiment, we live from a place of wholeness and peace inside that directs and manifests our outer experiences. Our true state knows our inherent worth. Our true state knows and respects the sovereignty and soul assignments of others. Our true state knows love as the true reality and isn’t disturbed by the purging reactions or distortions in others. Our true state knows heaven is not a myth or a place separate from us.
As parts of our collective world adjust, we are increasingly pushed back to ourselves. We can no longer mistakenly identify and qualify ourselves through outer filters and formulas. We are not limited or determined by labels, qualifications, narratives, or opinions. We are awakening to our true nature as LOVE. Love at the highest frequency knows no boundaries or conditions where it does not exist. It is ALL.
Spring facilitates our rebirth. It is a celebration of our transcendence of death. What we have lost, or laid waste provides a fertile ground for a new aspect or level to arise. In truth it was surrendered into the greater field of potential; it lives on as a hardwired wisdom etched in our bones. We realize we are more, not less in its resignation and assimilation. We understand sacrifices can be labors of love, and sadness fuel for an abiding joy. Once we know what we know we can never turn back, but we can perceive it differently over time.
In my experience, rebirth comes in tandem with refinement. I am consistently reminded that I have a responsibility for my overall space. As I am relieved of any outlived or undigested weight I’ve carried in thought and emotion, I am still called to be vigilant in maintaining a new focus and feed. Shifting energy changes things on a fundamental level, but we can be creatures of habit. If I continue to entertain draining and conflicting concepts, stories, and relationships, I will be the one wasting energy and holding myself back.
Sometimes what is old is comfortable even when painful. Sometimes it is brought around to us again and again to address various layers of understanding in it. Sometimes it comes back as an opportunity to choose better. Sometimes it stirs up subconscious links we were not even aware are there. Whatever surfaces, it is always an opportunity to take ownership and agency in what we can offer ourselves. No matter how painful the event, we have the ability to wield our power toward a higher outcome for ourselves. Freedom is an inside job first and foremost; we must work on the etheric planes of creation in ourselves before we effectively shift the outer manifestation.
Prayers bring us to that plane, and regular practice builds a momentum over time that becomes a second skin. Our thoughts are powerful, but they are also habitual and conditional. We are influenced in many dimensions of belief and experience. To break free, it takes consistent effort and commitment to reshape some of our formative tenets of reality. It all starts will our will.
Many are too busy taking in data and stimulation to observe what is really running in their system that is fueling their creations and experiences. Most believe themselves to be a victim of their realities, assigning their life’s events to a higher deity or evil counterforce. This fractures potency and defers responsibility. This allows some to manipulate and capitalize off of the ignorant and martyrized mindsets of others. It has encouraged us to think less of ourselves and accept deplorable treatment as a consequence of humanity’s “real” nature. This then becomes evidence of life’s cruelty.
What of our higher nature? What of the beauty in a flower, the generosity of an ocean, or the fertility of a forest?
Are we not all of it? If we keep reinforcing that virtuous qualities are only for the gods, won’t we only perpetuate a world at war and suffering? Will waiting for a super savior truly offer us the best chances we have for humanity to take its leap in evolution and grace?
Forgiveness is a virtue, an act, a discipline, a frequency, a concept, and a road. The same goes for kindness, for generosity, compassion, peace, and love…. All facets of love are part of our nature, but when we’ve forgotten and been misled to believe otherwise, they must be invited, reimagined, welcomed, and attempted again and again until they are the driving force and foundation of our experiences and creations. We must dedicate ourselves as we do to other subjects of learning, career, or lifestyle commitments. I have often heard people say, “I know I should forgive but I just can’t.” This is then followed by complaining about hating their job and its requirements but having to do it anyway—knowing they shouldn’t drink but doing it anyway—knowing they are in a bad relationship but staying anyway…. The will is always there to remain the same, despite any resulting pain or shame.
As we rebirth ourselves in new potential and awareness, we must be diligent in our responsibilities to uphold a higher field of creation. We must approach ourselves as our purpose, and our mastery as our highest job and service. As we embody more of our light, we hold a higher sense of responsibility. As we perceive the effects of negative projections and reactions, we know they are not something we wish to engage in ourselves. We understand the weight of our contributions and must let go of things that disrupt the foundation we have worked hard to build. We can discern distractions without emotional charge, and simply leave them starved and unactive in our lives.
Love does not communicate in judgment. Love is unconditional. Love utilizes patterns and boundaries to create form, and changes expressions ongoing to enhance experience and perception. Any doctrine shaming, manipulating, censoring, or enforcing its will on another is not communicating love. Love underlies all form, regardless of where it lies on the spectrum of duality. The pendulum can swing in complexity away from its center, but it is still existing in the same field. Extremes on either side eventually meet in likeness. We can perceive this easier from the center, than being caught in the entanglement of a more polarized edge.
As we grow in our mastery, it is wise to remain humble in our estimation of things. A planet in an evolutionary ascension cycle, is processing the energy of many lifetimes of karmic experience and interference. As we attempt to make sense of things outside of us, the energy, and its relevance to the collective changes. With so much shifting, our best path forward is grounding our higher self in every aspect of our lives. That takes ongoing honesty, scrutiny, devotion, and ownership of our energy, no matter what outside stimulus seems to trigger us. We are reinstating our creative ability consciously, and that comes with accountability and awareness of our activity in many dimensions of existence.
Dreamers of a new world are present with what is playing out in many realities but are exclusively interested and focused on one. Our greatest contribution comes from our own divine empowerment and embodiment. From this place we are uplifting and birthing what’s possible not plausible. We are not giving our power away to a super villain, a political party, or a prophecy. World shifts are facilitated by many, but the many reflect the one. Many can deny, abuse, misuse, and refuse to accept the ONE, but that only reinforces the illusions and effects of their position in them. It does not negate the underlying truth of reality. All come home to oneness eventually, and there are many roads. We are here to master and restore our own.
As old energy moves through us, it can encourage us to be reactive and emotional. We can perceive situations through mistrusting eyes and exaggerated perceptions, triggering defensive posturing that is at first unconscious to us. As we become aware of our patterns, we learn that they simply require space and acceptance. Our loving attention does a lot to help us process things from a higher and safer vantage point. If we can understand that everyone is in their own version of reality and take it less personally, we stop waging war with any opposition and lean more into what we are trying to achieve in ourselves in the face of it. Anything disrupting our personal peace, has an opening or unrecognized culprit inside. As we deal with these aspects inside us, we align with more opportunities and choices to create peace externally.
March is bringing us into an eclipse window that is highlighting and settling some imbalances. They won’t necessarily be new to our awareness, but they are an opportunity to double down on ourselves. Can we be honest with ourselves in where we place blame, or allow ourselves to be sold short? Can we free ourselves of old obligations and power struggles that no longer serve us? Can we balance the duality inside ourselves, and upgrade any outworn toxic patterns or expressions in ourselves? Toxic relationship expressions and patterns have been surfacing for some time on earth, allowing a new connection and union to be anchored within and without. If we are only focused on battling the outer distortions of polarity in society, we are missing the opportunity to address what is trying to harmonize and heal inside.
We are most effective in contributing to the greater good from a position of wellness. From this place we cannot be bought or sold. We are not willing to compromise or villainize another for personal gain. We are not compelled to take sides and disregard the value of others because of difference in belief. We recognize the bias and limitations that come with the parameters of conditioning and sensory restriction of a physical body. We also know we can go beyond theses confines, and remain open to our role in the changing tides.
Fear is being processed out of the human experience via an ongoing surge cycle of universal love. This is highlighting its signature in all of our beliefs, narratives, systems, and creations. We are purging and rewiring our systems to create from higher octaves of love. We will face and transcend our darkness and unconscious to know our light. It is in accepting not rejecting, that we come to our truth and our ability to then choose a new response. We can no longer deny our relationship to the troubles plaguing our world. We can no longer defer the blame or responsibility to another. We have an opportunity now, to create and relate out of unity. We can be peace in the face of chaos and conflict, not by shaming or “righting” a side, but by birthing and offering something beyond it.
There is a dimension and frequency where this all comes together. As more parts connect to that possibility, the availability and pull becomes stronger for others to join. Love is the universal force of creation, but it doesn’t force compliance or recognition. Love abides and provides freedom of expression and exploration. Distortions exhaust themselves from lack of alignment and authenticity in source connection eventually. They only exist because of our ongoing attention and energetic support. As we withdraw our connection, they lose power. Everyone is waking up to their part in this, and everyone is addressing their own karmic history in relation to creation here. There is a unique timing and position unfolding for each that is best served by each focusing on their own part.
This spring ask yourself, “What world would I like to live in?” “What world would I want to leave my children?” “What can I do to contribute to that vision?”
New creations and experiences require new expressions, actions, and contributions. We are not here to fix the old or the collective; we are here to live our part authentically. All that arises from that alignment fulfills its purpose naturally. Our hearts remember our purpose, and our hearts are connected to the unified field. Through them we bridge the opportunity to build back better. We know where we’ve been, but it’s time to demonstrate what is possible now.
I hope your Easter and equinox season offer you grand opportunities and openings for rebirth and refinement! Happy rising! 💜🐣💐
A Procession of Prayer
As Mars and Venus came together recently in the cosmos, I began processing unresolved masculine pain physically. I have been healing, balancing, and upgrading the masculine and feminine in me for a long time. I wrote about the replacing of my toxic masculine prototype in my book TRUE LOVE NOT LIKE IN THE MOVIES. The beginning of the process was signaled in a dream, where I experienced many of my incarnations of struggle with men, and I held his archetypal form as he died in my arms. I understood what was unfolding, and watched my relationship with my husband heal ongoing to reflect these upgrades in me.
We continue to grow together, but the last two years have shifted my focus on the distorted feminine. She was disempowered, she was the “wounded victim,” she was angry, she was betrayed, she was jealous, and she was in competition with others while starved for nurturance. After many trials and consistent effort, I was blessed again in my dreamtime to hold two of her most painful symbolic representations as they died. These shifts cost me some relationships in physical life, but they have led to great liberation and peace inside.
These transitions are done with love, in a willingness to anchor new templates of creation and pathways of relationship on earth. Our imbalances and misunderstandings have led to great hardship. People are at odds with themselves and each other; over-complicating, over-identifying, and over-focusing on sexuality and gender, in ways that allow for mass abuse, manipulation, and trauma to be normalized.
As I deepen my relationship with myself and my ancestral inheritance, I realize how much we are carrying forward the burdens, pain, and unfinished longings of our elders. We need only recognize this in ourselves to set forth change in the lineal chain. We all carry masculine and feminine inside; our outer expression is a designed technology serving our purpose in this life. Our bodies work with us in our explorations and expansions when we recognize their capacity to do so. They are always working to achieve harmony and health, but will go according to the current settings, operating system, and environment. Change and redirection in these factors, encourages change in the form.
What we tell ourselves, what we believe, what we take in, and what we do, are all part of the settings. Our old worldview believed that we are at the whim of our genetics, but modern science is proving factors like positive or negative thinking, affects and changes them. Our world is expanding, and this will allow us to expand our archetypal and physical realm of experience and possibility.
As I began processing masculine pain, I felt HIS longing for nurturance and acceptance too. HE has suffered in the imbalance and is weary of conflict. He mourns his traditional roles being warped and misunderstood. As I cried in pain on my right breast, I was visited by a medieval knight in chainmail armor. He too was crying, and approached my chest to find a lock with a thick chain, attached to a metal breast plate covering that side of my chest. He went at the lock with force and opened it, removing the entire construct. I felt immediate relief and hugged him. I thanked him for protecting me all those years. I relieved him from his post and sent him to my heart for respite. He was truly tired of war and the vigilance and dissonance it required. I realized how much we relied upon the masculine to fulfill these roles, and then attacked them for the consequential effects that evidenced in them over time.
After that ceremony I noticed new sensations and feeling adjusting in both breasts as a result. My right back was moving tension, my breasts and nipples tender and sore. What we do intentionally in spirit affects our physical manifestation. If you work with your body this way, you can experience this for yourself. I also noticed a cramp in my left ovary that surfaced. When I connected to it, it said it was a STICKING POINT in my female line. There is a feminine energy holding itself back from the masculine, wanting HIS acknowledgment and experience of HER pain. It was not quite revenge; they spoke that they want HIM to “get it.” There is a mistrust because of feelings of violation. I surrendered my part in the ceremony, but it remained a little sore. I was told to enfold it in love and allow that to create safety and nurturance over time. The last thing I want to do is push or force aspects that have already been hurt that way. I speak lovingly to them, and am respectful of their timing and experiences. The energy shifted in two days.
That night my dreams took me to many underlying trapped feelings that were moving out. I was guided to another prayer ceremony when I woke. I used to do them as part of my daily practice at home, at my favorite places in nature, and in all the many of the places I visited. They always grounded me in joy and optimism that I was able to then share. There is a part of every one of us that loves acts of devotion. We see this played out in so many ways. Life is spirit, and everything is spiritual and sacred; we do not need to limit devotion to religion. We were trained to see the separation, which added to our perceived loss of spiritual connection and magic in our daily operations.
Prayer is our love language with creation. It is an interfacing with our universe, our source, our reality, and ourselves in many dimensions and expressions. There is a part of us united to all. We are no stranger to love or its alchemical forces. When we set forth an intention, an inquiry, or a possibility, we are always met with a response. We will see it as much as we are open to receiving it. Prayer is an act of love and devotion. My meditative walks are prayers; my prayer ceremonies are changing and fluid. I may speak, dance, sing, and make offerings; I may do them in a natural setting on the move. I allow other benevolent energies to join me in their offerings. Life is full of allies and expressions ready to help. What they can do and how they help is as diverse as what we see in form here.
In the ceremony with the knight, Eagle came too. He was flying high and assisting me in the implementation of higher thought forms and templates. He reminds me not to get entangled in the emotional dross that’s purging and dying. I left the ceremony to walk on the lakefront and an eagle showed up there to fly overhead. I later received confirmation from two friends that I prayed for, that he had visited them. One sent me an eagle meme she came across that inspired and validated what she was going through. Another had an eagle prince in a dream that helped her resolve an old attachment issue she struggled to make sense of prior. Eagle made his rounds further; I have no doubt. We can’t always see the total effect of the ripples we send out, but the act is most beneficial when not attached to a specific outcome. Our souls are anchored in trust, and as we deepen our devotion, we are too.
The next prayer portal brought in new energies and emissaries. One was an ancestor from India. He brought through a transmission to clear the perversions of suffering in devotion. This distortion has tainted all faiths, has infiltrated personal relationships, and has encouraged an addiction and worship of suffering that is falsely celebrated as honor. He gave me the expression “DEPRIVATION IS ILLUMINATION,” and if you think on this, you can see how this is a thread that has been woven into many earth tapestries of belief, religious, and authoritative systems.
The subversion of the feminine in these systems is part of this concept, as is the worship of an enlightened one, a guru, a pope, etc, where followers are encouraged to sacrifice and donate their energy to uplift another or receive favor. Rejection of the material, believing God can only come to those in a position of extreme humility, or the toxic relationship where one suffers for another believing it is how they prove their love, are a few examples. We have created badges of suffering to flex in the era of virtue signaling. If we open our eyes to this core distorted belief, we can see its offspring in many things. Ask yourself, how does this energy or idea land in you? Are you comfortable in owning your divine birthright or power? Is there a part of you that believes you can’t have too much, be too much, or that you must prove yourself to receive divine love? These things are subtle until you get beneath the surface and follow the thread. Talk to yourself and your world, and let prayer help you highlight your threads.
Suffering is a part of life, to deny its existence is delusional. As we have evolved on earth through the experience of separation and duality, we have accrued many misunderstandings and struggles that got compounded and distorted further over time. We have forgotten who we are, but that does not change the true nature of who we are. Our pockets of amnesia, trials, and fears are the energies we must face and traverse through to access our truth.
Our suffering can show us a path to inner liberation, but it is not a mandatory lifestyle to earn wings to heaven. My ancestor made it clear that humanity has gotten away from wisdom into the worship of struggle and violence as noble. This has allowed most to grow further from the higher frequencies of light and remembrance. Whatever it looks like on the surface, love is the true nature of life. To seek this part of yourself, you can simply choose love. You can shine love into your suffering without loving or inflating suffering as a badge of honor. You are more than your suffering and not defined by any physical labels, experiences, or limitations.
I pulled a few cards for my prayer altar as guided: one for the FEMININE, one for the MASCULINE, with a shared union card from the Magical Dimensions Oracle Deck. The card of union was DESTINY. It relates to living our authentic purpose and is associated with a forest rose ray of light.
As I brought my prayer into physical exercise at HOTWORX, I was visited by a beautiful pink fairy bestowing a mauve pink light. I felt it enter my root energy center at my bottom while I was seated. I then experienced a variety of wildflowers rise, grow, and bloom out of that center up through my entire body. At my heart, was a rose in bloom. As this was unfolding, I was filled with the natural bliss and peace of existence. There is an elemental joy in being alive; an inherent joy that celebrates and adores creation.
Devotion is a natural state. I was filled with a deep knowing that we are our purpose. When we live authentically, everything we do is fulfilling our destiny. When we love something, it may inspire us to sacrifice something in the spirit of giving, but true giving and sacrifice is an offering of love not suffering. True giving is from a flowing well, not an obligation of limitation or reciprocation.
Unconditional love is what connects us all. When we share our flow with another, we are more not less. Devotional practices and attitudes must be updated to reflect our true heritage and energetic existence. The beautiful prayer transmissions reminded me of how powerful it is to be on the receiving end of love. It inspired me to ask, what is possible if everyone engaged daily in a devotional practice with the earth? A true loving exchange, not a practice from the place of an empty well in need of salvation or redemption, but more of a conversation between two lovers, or a bee’s revel in a flower. What if we all offer adoration and devotion to the earth herself, via our immediate landscapes? What if we love her as a sovereign and sentient being, not from a position of worry or fear, scarcity, or superiority? What if we relate to her instead, in the spirit of acknowledgement and gratitude. We are not here to dominate and control nature, we are in an interdependent loving relationship and kinship.
As if in response to that sentiment, my ceremony this morning followed that thread. It started with an emotional full moon release of sorrow. As I opened ceremony, I was brought to address the wound of rejection. As I sang prayers of forgiveness and peace, I had a new visitor. It is common for me to sit with the Earth as a woman during my meditative journeys. She is always with me, sometimes showing up in various phases of her growth and changes.
Today as she and I were singing, we were joined by her beloved masculine aspect FATHER EARTH. I was ecstatic! This has never happened, even though I am fully aware of addressing the duality in all things on earth. His arrival brought many tears of gratitude and a feeling of wholeness. I had dreamt last week of preparing my home for a wedding. I saw myself create an altar, and the dawning arrived that a sacred marriage is underway. He landed with a heat in the body and a passion to be present. I was guided to surrender and clear old collective narratives about the earth and her enslavement. He confirmed what she has always told me prior; the earth is a sentient sovereign being in a cycle of growth and transformation. She does not need our pity, fear, guilt, or shame. She wants love, respect, and allies that support her process. We are rising together. Our mastery of ourselves and our energy contribution, is a great service to her. Right action naturally follows right alignment. As the frequency of love rises on earth, restoration is an organic outcome. We are vessels of this change, so our commitment to divine alignment and embodiment is what helps facilitate this on earth. We are not separate.
My exchanges with earth and nature have been joyous and mutualistic on my path of love. In light of the intensity of the times, I am re-engaging in my daily offerings of formal ceremony and prayer. I don’t need anything. I don’t want anything. I am simply a lover and admirer of life in all its expressions. I know I am here to walk with love, and it is my sincerest hope that love and peace become the reality in which we all live on earth. There are many paths of wisdom and expressions of devotion. I invite you to celebrate yours, and to offer it to everything you meet. Share it with the passions closest to your heart. Let it light up your part of the tapestry here on earth.
Imagine what’s possible when Earth and her children create and live from a place of wholeness. We can give and live from that dream now. Let your vessel be a house of joy. Let yourself explore. Let what delights you change. Let it move. Let it grow. Then let it go. Release it into your world and watch it transform as you do. Love is our ultimate destiny, and we are closing in on the illusory gap.
Share your heart, share your voice, share your joy, share your dreams! We are called to create change, not reinforce same I love you 🌹🕊
Happy Full Moon in Virgo! 🌝💙
The Dawning of Aquarius
A flow state of creation and being is more accessible now on earth. Physical upgrades force many to slow down, disrupting reliance on former schedules, activities, and old ways of attempting to seek security inside via controlling outer circumstances. We are continuously being brought back to ourselves; where selfcare is not a prioritized practice, it becomes a necessity.
If we still tell ourselves we are victims of our environment, we experience these physical episodes as illness, something wrong, or the product of something we accept as a scapegoat, i.e. leaked virus, climate crisis, bad genetics, toxic food industry, AI interference, satanic influence, fill in the blank with the current dystopian trend. We all have a rabbit hole, but as we go deeper into it, we will always find ourselves at the other end. You will believe and perceive according to the story you choose, what is truly your story?
Humanity and all life on earth are in a cauldron of expansion. The heat, the storms, the reckoning, and revolution are necessary to transcend the previous confines. As a collective we are called to remember our responsibility as co-creators and contributors to our life on earth. As individuals we can only take our proper place when we do this for ourselves. This means we must be diligent in our commitment to our freedom, our values, and our alignment. Nature always reminds me of its sovereignty and majesty when we communicate; we need only reclaim ours.
The universe and ALL its elements are part of this shift. There is no separation. When we surrender to the higher design and implementation unfolding and allow our higher faculties to come online to guide us, we will not be disrupted by any lower fear narrative playing out. We instead, join the energy where the solution lies. We live, choose, and act from this aligned position, connecting to others creating new openings and outcomes. We trust in the love sustaining all; allowing all expressions to play their part and grow according to their perfect process and timing. We know the Earth has her agency and evolution, one that we are not here to dominate or harness.
What can we truly offer her but the best version of ourselves? In the age of transparency and unlimited information, we are encouraged to seek truth and foundations that support where we want to go. This requires us to take personal inventory. We all inherit fears, grievances, wounds, prejudices, and dispositions that are limiting, restrictive, and harmful to ourselves and others. For me, I often receive deeper layers of these influences in my dreams.
This week I experienced myself in scenarios of lies and betrayal, of abuse and neglect, and of conflict and persecution. I found some of the characters were flat, stereotypical representations of male and female. I was able to see where gender roles were clearly assigned to certain types of problems. Men were typically the aggressors, for example. I am led through symbolic scenarios in my dreams and then physical reality often, to help me understand what is shifting in me, my body, my relationships, my lineages, and in the collective.
The last two days illustrated this perfectly. I woke yesterday from a dream where I was in a stressful situation. A party I attended was not what I thought it would be, and my partner was engaging in things that were hurtful and neglectful of me. I was afraid and going along despite what I wanted. I could feel emotions and energies in my heart stirred up as I came out of it, and realized it was layered with some of my personal experiences, but it was also symbolic of energies experienced by many women in my family. My partner was a generic representation and projection of MAN. He was the perceived villain in many women’s stories, losing his heart, his humanity, and his individuality as time went on. Many women stopped seeing him, and only saw what they feared and felt in the pain and expectations inherited. I had unconsciously played this out too for years, and it was because of my direct experience of it that I was able to shift its energy in a larger way. Our healing is like ripples in an ocean, or as it is sometimes shown to me, a lightning running through a quantum web or tree.
I spoke intentions and engaged in an energetic clearing and resolution. I then went to physical exercise and implementation. I felt a lightness ensue after, but as evening rolled around the fire alarms went off in my house without provocation. I thoroughly checked all areas of my home and there was no evidence of fire or gas. I sensed the alarm that was the issue, and when I pressed the button, it silenced all temporarily. I did this multiple times with no lasting success for half an hour. I then started to feel my nervous system get amped and anxious. I knew there wasn’t a problem, but my body was still responding to the stimulus. I decided I would get help and called the fire dept to make sure there was nothing wrong. They discovered an issue with the same alarm I was focusing on and dismantled it.
I went to bed exhausted, stepping into more of my internal alarm system in dreams. This time it wasn’t about a partner. I was brought to a school ground that I was researching for my children. In my exploration, I encountered a building where young children and animals were being housed. They were left without adult supervision, fending for themselves. I was upset and worried for them, but when staff came in, I was in trouble for being in an unapproved area. I saw school staff enter and coral the children into uniforms, order, and an organized formation to leave the building. The children had an empty look, and I wondered what happened there to achieve a submission like that with such young children.
I then set off through a swampy landscape with baby hippos and was confronted by a young man. He kept arguing and challenging me, ignoring my requests that he leave. After being pursued for a time, I had enough and physically pushed him away. When I made it to the school office, that man was there and had reported me. There was a panel of men waiting and accusing me. I spoke my truth, but they were not open to my side, or understanding of my situation. I woke with feelings of frustration, in anticipation of judgment and punishment. I felt deeply that the system was set up for me to fail, and that justice was unattainable.
I again went to my healing practices to shift these energies and templates inside me. I knew a significant portion of my defense and protection mechanisms were surfacing for me to surrender them. If I am to have a new experience in my relationships, like deeper trust, intimacy, passion, and connection, then I must remove the outdated filters and barriers in the way. These show up physically in me as fight or flight responses to new circumstances, blocks to feeling or vulnerability, and even hard tissue in my breast. As I address the energetic roots, I feel the openness, sensitivity, and softness more in the physical. I unlocked much in these 2 nights, and as I embody more of myself, I naturally feel safer in all facets and settings of life.
As we reclaim parts of ourselves that were rejected, hurt, lost, or abandoned in love, we are naturally uplifted and protected by our rise in frequency and light quotient. I find that healing and reclaiming parts of me in lower frequency experiences, correlate to restoring higher dimensional aspects of me as well. As I cried to release trapped energy that was tied to these last dream sequences, I was comforted by a star mother of an indigo blue light. She was robed with the star-studded darkness of space itself. She placed her luminous hand on my heart to help my process. I felt intense love in our connection, and awareness that she is me in another realm of experience. I have been receiving tingling adjustments in my body since she has come on board, and I know myself to be in a new configuration. When we allow our encounters and assistance to be real, instead of trying to figure it out in our minds, we have a smoother journey.
We are then creating and perceiving from a higher vibration, attracting healthier versions or reflections of the changes we make. Love is calling us to ground new pathways of possibility in unity. As we release others from being the validation or villain in our stories, we connect to those that compliment us. We take ownership of ourselves instead of expecting others to correct or complete us. The healthy in “us” supports and encourages the healthy in all, and higher opportunities, actions, and creations naturally arise from this space of elevated collaboration.
As we approach the first new moon in Aquarius, what are we envisioning for ourselves, our families, our communities, our planet, and our galactic connection? Can we see ourselves in the bigger picture? Can we trust our place in the universe, understanding that changes in the sun, lead to changes on earth, leading to changes in all of life on earth? Can we see what is breaking down, is allowing a break through?
What do we know about change? Haven’t we consistently seen transformation being facilitated by elements like heat and light, sometimes intensely and destructively to achieve something new? We are no stranger to life’s cycles and processes, no stranger to death as a transitional agent. Love knows where it seeks to expand, where it seeks to be empowered, and where it thrives in united intention and effort. What will you facilitate for love in the age of Aquarius? We are dropping the baggage that weighs our rocket ship down and embracing our divine technology as a path forward.
On this new moon, aim higher. It is time to reach for and reconvene with the stars. You are more than you realize!
Happy New Moon in Aquarius 🦋🌚🌹
