Living the Dream 2024
This holiday season provided me with periods of intense physical transmutation, requiring rest and surrender. I slowed down and simplified when prompted, and found my moments filled with a deep appreciation and gratitude for what has remained loving and supportive in my life. The new year still felt like it occurred in a holding pen of sorts. I was sloughing off layers of past emotional debris, while gaining increasing clarity on my position and foundation in a higher frequency field.
As I doubled down on my commitment and worked to clear things on all levels, I received small reminders and openings to take steps toward my upgraded vision. Death and elimination are part of creation. We are often called to make room in ourselves and our space to allow for new things to blossom. Pruning is part of life; not all thoughts, behaviors, beliefs, relationships, and choices support our destiny for this lifetime.
As the surges of galactic light continue to transmute the heaviness on the planet, we become more aware of our existence in multiple levels and dimensions of consciousness. Consequently, we then become more effective in balancing and shaping our experiences and creations. We become less attached to fixed thought forms, and more present with our well-being on all fronts: mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual. We are energy in form, attracting our experiences in likeness; therefore, we learn to become more selective of the energies we entertain, consume, and align.
The next phase of evolution requires humanity to assume its proper place in the unified field of love. Humanity will expand beyond its perceived limitations of separation, lack, and domination, to restore its kinship and connection to the unlimited source of life in all its expressions. Where we close off from love and each other, we close off from solutions existing at a higher resonance of wellness and wholeness. We understand that the outcome and state of something, is dependent on the success, health, and integrity of all its elements.
To get there, we must shed our blocks, lies, fears, defenses, and barriers to oneness. This occurs both inside of us, and collectively in all group consciousness fields of organization and identification. In addressing these thresholds, we don’t have to diminish or negate their validity. Love is enhanced and enriched by its various expressions, not diluted or divided in truth—EVER.
The surface chaos we see on the world stage is evidence of all past stories, distortions, and traumas being cleared from our systems. What appears to be a resurgence is the necessary processing of past experiences that allows for a higher understanding and perspective to be achieved. Clarity comes from energetically releasing lower, denser mental and emotional residue. It’s a physical process, and often a confusing and frustrating one. Everyone is in a unique position, which is why some people cannot assimilate information that is obvious to others. We relate according to our position of perception, and level of divine embodiment. As we dispel our inner shadows in the presence of our light, we are unencumbered by the same shadows present in others. We allow them the freedom and right to enact their own resolution and timing, knowing we are not victimized in any way by their position unless we give our power to them.
If we consciously face and address our own fears and defense mechanisms, we easily recognize them in others and learn to take people’s reactions less personally. We understand our position of power is always in our personal landscape. Mastering our inner nature is a fulltime job. We are only tasked with assuming our power responsibly and creatively. We are not here to force change on others, in judgment or blame. Most in opposition to us, will be unable to perceive us through their blocks and opinions. Our power is recognizing and mastering our own.
We all have inherited prejudices and preferences; thoughts via ideas, judgments, and beliefs create patterns and frameworks for creation to take shape. Structures are necessary, but they are also malleable. Everything is subject to change and in a constant state of expansion and contraction ongoing.
As expressions of source energy, we are imbued with inherent gifts and magic. If we are not open to this truth, and we reinforce beliefs that degrade our position, we will not connect to the potential.
What do you know to be true? Your whole life’s circumstances are reflecting that back to you. Can you perceive that we are running many realities and frequencies on earth? Are you entraining your energy to someone else’s version of reality? We have been conditioned to do this…. To believe there is one way that is right to live, one religion that is right to give credence to, one version of history that is to be validated by the “winner” or arbitrator of the most resources. How much power are you giving away to support these claims? How much truth are you not able to see in others because of these settings? How much peace do you forfeit?
As a collective we are in the process of birthing a new reality. Instead of identifying with our baser nature, and reinforcing our identities through old grievances, survival competition, and hierarchal differences, we are invited to create a new story. We are urged to connect to the higher reality in LOVE where we are already together. We are encouraged to be forgiving of our missteps and blind spots, recognizing they were part of our human experience in ignorance and lower frequency subjugation. We are not who we thought we were; we have been convinced of our unworthiness for so long, that we don’t even question it.
It takes time to detox the distortions out of our system. We don’t feel safe at first. Our authority structures use this to maintain our compliance. Violence and worst-case scenarios are streaming through every platform. They need us to believe and participate energetically to maintain it. Are you interested in repeating history, or are you here to innovate a higher possibility?
New eras rely on visionaries willing to see beyond the current situation. We are not here to fix yesterday’s problems; as new age space holders, we are here to implement new ways of being that lie beyond the current divisive constraints of the problem. As divine emissaries of light, we don’t need to figure it all out with our minds. We have faith in the design and current of divine flow. We embody the higher potentiality and radiate it. We allow our energy to attract and organize the physical circumstances appropriate for our part. We do not create by controlling or forcing. We manage our energy and trust it to attract accordingly. Love is naturally intelligent and self-organizing. We are often simply surrendering our dependency on our minds, and how we think things should happen or be. This allows our results to bypass the mental limitations we’ve stored from past experiences, manifesting a new outcome.
If we want to establish peace, then we prioritize peace in ourselves first. We won’t create peace while we blame, shame, or wage war with anyone, including ourselves. We won’t promote peace successfully, while we worship a vengeful god that persecutes, judges, and loves conditionally. If we truly want to improve the quality of life for all on the planet, we will retire our allegiance to harmful doctrine and practices. We will focus our efforts on the world we know is possible in our hearts, and LIVE it. Visionaries are not here to validate what worked before; they are here to bring us where we haven’t been.
We have the technology to improve the quality of all life, we just haven’t fully committed to aligning to the LOVE that exists beyond all differences. Until we love ourselves unconditionally and bring peace to the paradoxical parts inside ourselves with radical honesty and forgiveness, we will continue to deny the sanctity of some. If we can’t accept our own worth and offer ourselves the patience and love necessary to grow into a new version of ourselves, we won’t be able to offer it to others. Where we hold ourselves back in judgment and intolerance, we remain chained.
As a new year and new karmic cycle came in, I have been reminded to focus exclusively on what I want to experience in my life. The past is gone. I am guided to take ownership and responsibility for my creation; to check in on all levels of my system ensuring they are in balance and harmony. All levels must be in alignment and integrity with who I authentically am and my purpose. On a basic level my purpose is my wellbeing. I do not have to do anything to be loved or valued. I am love. As love, I check in on the health of my creations and experiences:
Are the thoughts and stories I am energizing, positive to my health and highest good? Positive to the earth and my direct surroundings?
Am I emotionally aware and intelligent? Do I allow my emotions to flow? Do they enrich my life and my relationships, or do they rule and ruin my mood in a volatile fashion? Do I mind my vibration? Protecting my peace and choosing to cultivate the feelings I wish to experience?
Do I take care of my body? Do I respect its needs or override them to my detriment?
Am I living a spirit-led life? Am I creating and engaging in things that are meaningful, complimentary, and productive to my spirit? Am I connecting to surface or soul? Soul will always steer me from things that harm me in any way, that don’t respect my time or value. I know that prioritizing soul, naturally honors the other parts of me securing me in an earthly existence. Spirit LOVES me unconditionally and will ask me to move beyond my limits, but LOVE will never ask me to compromise myself in harmful sacrifices or punishments.
I am assured I can trust the foundation I have rebuilt through love. I am not alone, and I am always assisted in my guided endeavors. As I have increasingly embodied more of my TRUE LOVE, I am no longer looking to create reactively according to outer circumstances. I set the tone, and I seek my guidance from within. My path may not be understood or approved by everyone, but it is for me to live. I could not have gotten here following any outside directives. I know what is for me is mine, and in no way impedes or diminishes what is good for another. I have come to love and value myself authentically and unapologetically; and I sincerely hope to see everyone do this for themselves in their own way. It is joy to know yourself and live your purpose. As I cultivate this joy, I radiate and encounter it everywhere I go.
It is part of my focus for 2024, to awaken and inspire more love in all levels of life on earth. As our past is cleared from our cellular memory, may we remember ourselves as the LOVE in which all form resides, and all dreams are made possible. May we LIVE the dream we wish to see manifest in the world. I wish you a restorative and magical new year!
I would love to hear about your holiday experience. Are you living your dream? What is your focus for the new karmic cycle? What are you willing to create and facilitate in 2024 as LOVE?
A Procession of Peace
November felt like a field of peace that landed to hold space for a funeral procession. October’s death march (detailed in last month’s blog) allowed for the peace to arrive, but in November, anything lingering in feeling or thought that was attached to my past aspects moved out in accordance. My dreams were vivid and active, bringing me to close out subconscious files that allowed more of my energy to shift to the present.
As I explored various dimensions of consciousness, I realized how much we exist in many “places” at once; I also realized how incorrect it is to assume our goal or ascended outcome is a place at all. It has been useful in manipulating and subjugating humanity, to encourage the idea that heaven and hell are places set apart from earth. This has imprinted beliefs that there are things we can do to go or avoid going there. That focus betrays our senses. We are often living in hellish frequency experiences, ever looking to avoid something worse.
Our beliefs, and avoidance in feeling the truth of our realities, help ensure that we will perpetually create the same. Heaven, after all, is something we are taught we must physically die to achieve any way. Instead, we argue over ways for people to get there, dehumanizing and invalidating other life forms that don’t support our version of ‘truth.” It is only when we are forced to fully feel the weight of our truth and recognize its costs in our own lives that we stop seeking a place. We see that we are only running from ourselves and our most vulnerable parts. These parts are innocent; they are simply wanting to be brought home, separated by walls of feeling, fearfully made to appear larger in size over time.
It is hard to imagine that all the troubles in the world exist in a unified field of peace. The illusion and complexity rampant in physical separation feels like a prison. It is only when we extract our energy and attention from the sources of distortion and deception in our lives, and redirect it to what truly uplifts, resonates, and energizes us that we can perceive the game of entrapment being played. When our focus and fight seek only to match our so-called opponent, we remain entangled and embroiled in the problem.
As PEACE, we can hold space for all our contradictions inside and out. We entertain contradictions in thought and action all the time. We ignore them in our belief and authority structures to maintain our status quo. We believe in them out of fear. We exhibit them as they are convenient to us in getting what we want. We worship them in others where we confer power or responsibility. We deny them in ourselves and hide them from others when we seek righteousness. We call it out in others when its advantageous. All the while PEACE smiles, knowing all as simply the illusions of a solitary argument. There is one love, in various dimensions, vibrations, frequencies, degrees, and expressions—all valuable, all part of a grander design and operation.
Living in the US, we are reminded of gratitude in November. The holiday season is kicked off, which is triggering for many due to any unresolved or challenging circumstances of family or economy. This year, I was able to be more present. I have simplified my holidays over the last few years to start new traditions that honor quality time and peace with my immediate family. Slowing things down helped me experience things on a deeper level. November’s funeral procession helped me to observe and detach from old judgments and obligations that interfered with the meaningful connections that are truly active and supportive in my life.
In death’s transformation and procession, I continued to refine and realign my energy. I saw this in the dream space as rooms getting cleared out, bookshelves and cabinet drawers emptied. I took the trash out and cleaned the floors in one sequence. I also observed empty fish tanks. I observed the water removed from ones that were no longer viable, containing dried up or dead plants and creatures. The water was then rerouted to a tank that was still active, and I witnessed it come back to a more vivid color and bustle. I understood that I had old attachments that I was sending energy to that was long dead and gone. The past runs in our minds far longer than it exists. We get caught up in animating ghosts and fantastical projections of events and others, often to avoid accepting how we feel in the present. This distraction fractures our potency and integrity in accomplishing the things we set out to experience. Many of the files of information stored in our system are handed down through the bloodlines and maintained subconsciously, influencing us in ways we seldom recognize or question. We are vast, multidimensional beings of creative expression and experience. We are being encouraged to embody more of our authentic energy and to grow in new directions that are more compatible and harmonious with us. We are making space for new opportunities and conscious choices to help us get there.
On the final day of the funeral procession, I visited my favorite local spot in nature, and was held in so much love and connection. I am always amazed at the selflessness of the earth. I was overcome with gratitude to be received this way, and to witness more upgrades at the park.
The holidays brought a little heaviness from changes in my family, but the land reminded me that our suffering often comes from our pre-conceived notions and expectations of things. We have ideal standards and obligations handed down that are seldom reflective of our realities, and we often judge ourselves in the ways they fail to comply. The spirit of the land reminded me of how much I am loved, and of how my regular visits and energy shared with the park, added to the beauty continuing to unfold now. Love is a mutually beneficial exchange. In the spot that I prayed weekly for over a year, is now a beautiful bench dedicated with the purpose “Share a message of Kindness.”
I cried on that bench overwhelmed with joy for having been a part of its journey. That land held me through my darkest times, and to see new love offerings bloom there as they are unfolding in my own life, made my heart sing. I felt a tremendous outpour of love from our connection, my cup overfilled and overflowing. I was then encouraged to surrender the old attachments, projections, and expectations into the lake to be recycled. I could replenish myself with all the love I needed there.
LOVE is all around us, but if we are limiting ourselves to only receiving it from certain places, and those places fail to meet our needs due to their own shortsightedness, we are setting ourselves up for disappointment and deprivation. We simply need to open our hearts, our circles, our horizons…
In November’s completion, I was taken last night to retrieve things/energy I had in another’s home. I was also shown an imbalanced pattern or tendency I had in that relationship so I could close it out for good. When we close out toxic patterns in ourselves, it can end the relationships that are not able or willing to relate in a new way. Sometimes, however, it can give another the awareness needed to change it in themselves. We can call our light back from any places of fragmentation and know that our wholeness is naturally loving and inclusive without having to prove we are loved, lovable, or valuable. It is not selfish or unkind to do so. If one side of a relationship suffers to maintain the connection, it is not truly loving for either.
I am truly grateful for the parade of the past that I’ve hosted this month. In taking an honest and accepting ownership of it, I was able to release so much shame and guilt for my “story.” I was also guided at the end of October to surrender all attachments to my book. I was given a choice point to go to an event to promote it, or to attend a new opening in support of the next phase I was shown. I chose the opening.
TRUE LOVE NOT LIKE IN THE MOVIES is only a small part of my story. It’s a true story, and it was written and offered in so much love, but it is not the totality of who I am or where I am now. I release it to have its own journey, without expecting it to be or validate me in any way. It was always about the journey, and I was healed so much in the telling and producing of it for myself.
It is truly joyful to know yourself—to be at peace with who and where you are in the moment. It is from that space that peace is realized. You do not have to chase it or wait for it to show up externally. It won’t until it is truly encountered in you. Peace does not need to be right or need any one to conform to its story or ideals. Peace knows that all conflicts and paradoxes are reclaimed into unity eventually. It is never too late to begin, and it is a journey that always starts within. I pray you find your origin in PEACE this holiday season, and that you will prioritize it for yourself, your life, your family, your community, your country, your continent, your world, your universe….
Peace be with you 🕊
Death Becomes Her
Scorpio season came in with a transformative and beautiful bang for me. The whole month of October has presented challenges, but all with opportunities to dig deeper and excavate treasure.
I started with a visit to my daughter’s college campus in TN. It was beautiful weather and so good to be together. Her transition has brought up a lot in me. As my parenting roles change with each consecutive child, parts of me undergo a death process. I lose identities and connections to things that really consumed my focus and time. As space is created, there is emptiness and a grief in knowing that parts of my life that I loved so much are over. I also get to see new aspects of myself that are grasping or attached in ways that I know are needing adjustment. Children need freedom to truly explore themselves and what they are here to do. As I observe myself and all that I am still unraveling in influences and conditions I was imprinted with in childhood, I realize how important it is to let my children be.
As I shift out of the pervasive setting of fear, I realize how much I impacted them unintentionally with my own negative perceptions and experiences of the world. This is done without conscious intent. This is done without words. As I shift ancestral influences in me, I realize how much we are impressed with energies from our bloodlines. This is especially true for our mother’s line. We are formed inside them and connected to their auric field strongly for the first incarnation cycle. The wisdom and power of mother is returning to its proper place on earth, and as we restore this in ourselves and families, it will literally change and elevate the frequency of life here.
As I have raised and loved my children at various stages, it has helped nourish the child in me that longed for such things. I think one of the reasons people struggle with the proverbial “empty nest” as their children leave, is the time it leaves for them to spend with themselves. They may feel that their primary sources of love and joy are gone, but in truth it is a time to offer these things to themselves. We are not taught this, so it seems uncomfortable at first. The grief is deeper than the loss or rite of passage, it is a death that is a necessary function of life, birth, rebirth, and creation itself. We get to explore new aspects of ourselves, and see where we are holding on to fears and stereotypes about these phases that can be shifted to live more peacefully and authentically.
I had children young so I always felt like I was growing up with them in a way. I am so grateful for the time I have with them and for their patience with me as I stumbled through life. All of the pressures I placed on myself to attain or be something of value, didn’t really matter. There is love in all of it that has sustained.
I came back from TN to support a family ,member in the hospital. This was to correct something that resulted from an earlier emergency. It was a reinstatement of sorts, allowing for a renewed sense of gratitude for what remains after a period of loss and brush with death delivered a new world view. Death always allows for a new opening or beginning. What we struggle to let go of, is often a relief after we overcome the fear of losing it. I was blessed to be visited by a friend that had eclipse glasses while there, so I was able to see the solar fire eclipse. I marveled at the many faces of the sun during the event, and how bright and strong the sun light is even while eclipsed. That sentiment stays with me as darkness and discord are stirred up in the world. I know the light does not have to fight, it only shines and absorbs the shadow in its wake.
Humanity will rise to transcend its subjugation to polarity and separation. The projected poisons must surface to be recognized in resonance and reflection. We continue to see divisive extremes in race, politics, religion, wealth and other seemingly opposite poles, behaving more in likeness and similarity. They are matching in energetic resonance, and not actually as different as the surface stories proclaim. Hate is hate, violence is violence, blame is blame, and the accuser is often proven guilty of that which is accused. In the limited understanding and experience of separation, people project their own issues and emotions onto others. They blame others for what they refuse to see in themselves. This is especially true in times of discomfort and misfortune. As more people recognize that this happens in themselves and their relationships, they will free themselves from the shackles of victimization all together. Freedom starts from the inside out.
We are dying to old forms, ideas, constructs, beliefs, identities, and all their restrictive bindings. This causes major shifts in the frameworks that they create, inhabit, and reinforce. When we first see the deception and distortion in longstanding systems and beliefs, we are affected in proportion to the degree we have personal investment. If they are a large part of our identity and focus, we may be in shock and loss as they falter in decline. Some will be in denial because of this, and double down with a sinking or exploding ship. We all have paths of growth and choice here, perfect for our soul evolution and purpose. Our best bet is on ourselves; what is dying, what is opening, and what is being reborn in our self?
For me the resolutions have been very active in the dream realm. I have been a willing participant in addressing any armor or defensiveness I find in myself that created distortion or distance in my relationships or perceptions of others. When I first encountered my inner fortress and default protection setting, I was in shock. I was putting myself in new uncomfortable situations of vulnerability that set them off. It took time to develop them, and it has taken patience and practice to feel safe in relinquishing them. Some are unconscious and from other dimensional incarnations. They arise as we are ready to process them.
In a recent dream I was in another earth incarnation where I was murdered. I lived through the event in a way that allowed me to process and understand the residual effects of the trauma affecting me here. I was still holding shock, betrayal, devastation, and grief. I was murdered with my best friend and her small child. I had begged and bartered myself to spare her life to no avail. When I awoke, I created a space for myself to feel what was ready to move and be acknowledged. There were parts of me angry at myself for my helplessness and ineffectiveness, and at God for creating this complexity. I understood how this generated an overall feeling of mistrust toward others, an ongoing backdrop of danger and sorrow. I also hardened myself to prevent trusting or connecting too deeply because of the pain of loss. This really doesn’t stop us from feeling or suffering, it just imprisons us and causes feelings of isolation and segregation. When I was younger I numbed myself with alcohol to be social, but I was locked in armor as long as I can remember. I knew I was not normal and believed myself to be defective, but until I met these inner barriers I didn’t fully understand the extent.
I additionally was gifted in dreamtime with symbolic representations of other distorted beliefs I was holding on to in my subconscious. When we cannot access them consciously, we are left breadcrumbs. I was first alerted by my body. My digestive system slowed down to a miserable impasse. I was constipated for days. I knew there was something I was not digesting; something I was needing to let go of that was blocking flow and harmony. I was guided to slow down, to focus and nurture myself. As I began inquiry, I received. I was still holding fears of betrayal and abandonment. I was holding unprocessed anger and shame from my story. This was shown to me so I could address and process the energy, and then I could choose to move forward with a new understanding and willingness. We process major traumas over time cyclically, with each round having less disruption and charge when we are willing to let it go. As I took the time to prioritize my body and what it was telling me, I was relieved of the heaviness in the way. As I address my body as an intelligent vessel of awareness and technology, I am continuously amazed at its ability to communicate, cooperate, and mutate in response.
Things came to a magnificent culmination as soon as Scorpio season started. I was guided to do a reiki prayer ceremony for myself. I was to focus my attention and efforts on self love. I was guided to start by cleansing all roots and forms of self abuse. I then initiated the energy transmission and was taken to a clearing in a fairytale-looking wooded area. In the center I saw my current form in a glass coffin, similar to the scene in Snow White. Archangel Michael’s sword was lying along the length of my body on top of the glass. I appeared dead, and there was a long procession of all of my former selves in this life. They were arranged in line according to age, going back in time to conception. By my side, was my winged light self holding my hand and making adjustments, as each aspect of self came to pay love and respect before they merged into my resting form. It was attended by many other guides and beings, but the event pertained to all versions of myself.
I felt so loved and witnessed; I additionally felt love for every version of me in time. I made peace with myself and was able to finally lay rest to humiliations, judgments, and grudges held. After all aspects were called home, I watched my light self adjust the technology of my form before she too merged with it. I then saw myself rise new, to be welcomed by my attending team of light and support. It was a celebration of death and life, for nothing is truly lost but is reclaimed and part of the new shape moving forward. I was guided to then walk out into the world, and felt awkward in the body as I grounded into it. I was in joy and gratitude for what was accessed in death. My body continued to integrate and accommodate the upgrades in light through the night.
Death continues to be a source of awe and transformation in my process. When I lost my brother in 2014, I was facing some of the darkest parts of myself that encouraged me to consider it as a possible relief. At that time, I perceived it as an ending that was final, and a threshold uncrossable. It was cruel, and in opposition to life. I wrote about this time in my book TRUE LOVE NOT LIKE IN THE MOVIES, where I share how my brother reached out to me after his transition. It was through his ongoing love and support, that I learned to perceive death differently. I was able to experience love as intelligent and eternal, and I see now how death is one of love’s primary functions for growth and creation.
We are love experiencing ourself in various expressions of creation through time. We are no stranger to death, and it is our fears and beliefs about death that are in the way of us experiencing more peace and freedom here. We can embrace death, befriend death, and become death when we are called to change. We need not fear what we perceive is lost to us forever; what is real in love remains. What is important for our growth and wisdom do also. We can process and integrate the charges of the energy, while maintaining the experiential pearls.
Death encourages us to challenge everything in our reality. When it strikes to remove something or someone significant, it forces us to reconfigure ourselves, our perceptions, and our relationship with everything. We are always in various phases of birth and death energetically in life. Right now there is some part of you dying. There are layers of the past seeking rest and reconciliation in you. As you succumb to it as an aspect of life, instead of resisting it out of fear, you will find it has much to offer. You will also find it has companions that are available to you, to assist you in learning to let go.
Fear not the emptiness and space it leaves. Do not rush to fill it with new activities, attachments, and things. Let yourself be filled with you for awhile. Return to simple chores and steps. Take notice and comfort in the reliable rhythms in nature. Let flow run wild. You won’t run out of tears. In these empty spaces we find openings to places long forgotten and left untended. When the light enters there, a new world emerges within.
I would love to hear from you! What are your experiences with death? Where are you being called to let go? To transform? To be new?
May you find your own darkness more fruitful than fearful! Happy treasure hunting and Happy Halloween 👻💜
September’s Surrender
The fall equinox brought me back to my favorite local park to plant blessings in the earth’s womb. After processing many layers of ancestral and karmic residue, tender connections and simple moments allowed me to see what was real and solid for me as the dust settled. I knew it was so prior, but the past warns and deceives as it comes back around for resolution. It helps to stay grounded in who we are and what is truly real in our life.
I was invited to sit with the elder tree I call Grandmother. The ceremony started with an outpouring of gratitude. She has reached out and held space for me in my deepest and darkest moments of transition and transformation. Walking the path of unconditional love is not always sunshine and rainbows. Souls that choose this path, often go into the darkest places to find, and shine their light. It is from these reformations that medicine, inspiration, and higher resolutions are made possible and tangible in form. One must often be in the energy of something to fully acknowledge, address, and shift it. It starts that way at least, until enough progress is made, and energy is mastered.
I explore my journey on the path of true love in my book TRUE LOVE NOT LIKE IN THE MOVIES. In it I share how I entered the path through a trauma in my marriage that I was able to shift from an inner journey of self-love, that was then mirrored in my relationship. As unconditional love, I was guided to meet every circumstance with love’s virtuous aspects consistently, regardless of what showed up. It was very challenging to my ego. My pride was humiliated, hurt, and in a seemingly weakened position for some time. Truthfully, I had lived in that position for a long time, I was just finally forced to confront it. I was also forced to confront the ways I gave my power away in relationship, the ways I ran away from and numbed myself and my feelings, the ways I was unsupportive, ashamed, and disappointed in myself. I am still removing walls and defensive mechanisms inside. I still address negative expectations as default settings from accumulated past experiences. It is an ongoing spiral of energy refinement that allows me to access more of who I really am at the core of my creations.
At this point, I remain in awe of the power of love. My commitment has brought me to unveil the worst truths and shadows in my reality. It has exposed unhealthy attachments and led to closures in significant relationships. Love leads one through loss and allows one to see it as a necessary ingredient for expansion in creation. The essence of love remains, as the forms and alignments change.
Love is not worried about looks or being understood. Love is about being in truth and integrity, which can be perceived differently from various angles and viewpoints. Following love’s guidance has served me well. It has created profound shifts and changes that continue to ripple out positively. The more I embody the change and allow it to be immediate and real, the easier it becomes. It is only challenged when my past thought forms and emotional layers try to interfere. It is hard to believe that this can be simple and easy when we encounter the collective healing purges creating chaos on the world stage.
This is where my relationship with Grandmother has been so precious. Her roots run deep. Her space is held with patience and wisdom from bearing long-term witness. As I struggled with toxic human patterns and relations, she just loved. As I cried, as I apologized, as I felt horror, shame, guilt, despair… she loved. She strengthened this in me. She taught me how to stand firm in loving silence, even while I hurt, while I was attacked, while I was in anger, while I was feeling injustice. I could feel all, but I did not have to return or respond in kind. I could hold the space for truth, even when confronted with those that couldn’t see or understand it. I could love the stumbles as much as the triumphs. I could love the ME that was hidden, ugly, and mean. I could love the HE that I thought didn’t see me, couldn’t feel the love I really wanted, and couldn’t be emotionally available while in the same forms of denial and escape from himself. I could forgive what I struggled to forget. I could witness myself in many stages, many misunderstandings, leading to many things I would later realize with regret. I could accept them and keep going and trying again.
The path of love has deepened an acceptance and understanding of myself and others, allowing me to feel safer in relationships in ways that used to terrify me. As I open up, I see it reflected in others. I see it in all life forms. The depth is felt everywhere I go. There is no stranger, and there is no aspect undeserving of love. I can simply be love, and leave everyone to their own timing, guidance, and process, without trying to inappropriately attach or interfere. The greatest leaps have taken place in myself, my life, and my relationships when I detached from detailed outcomes or expectations, and gave them freedom. Freedom is an agent of love itself.
Before I went to see Grandmother, I had celebrated my 47th birthday. My husband and I spent a magical weekend in New Orleans. It had been years since we went out there. It was the city that hosted the experiences of our fall. I was a little nervous going back there because of the memories and versions of us that haunted me. This time, I was pleasantly surprised to experience a delightful new version of it. I knew our trip was the consummation of a story that’s ready to be released. The rebirth was validated in a piece of art we both connected to on Magazine St. titled, “From Nothing,” at Terence Osborne’s gallery.
We have both changed so much, so our reflection in the city obliged. We experienced kindness, joy, and validation through others and our circumstances. I was overcome with gratitude and grounded that into the city as much as possible. I was additionally blessed on my actual birthday with 47 red roses. I immediately felt the rose as the symbol of our journey. I knew the path of love and transformation that we shared in the rose, with all its thorns and imperfections, both dismantling and all-encompassing. It was the offering I would make for the equinox: a beautiful blossom arising out of a surrendered pride and balancing of blades.
I placed my TRUE LOVE offering in Grandmother’s womb, in the earth’s womb, in the cosmic womb, in the womb of creation. We are all connected. We are all love embodied. Our connections and unions are sacred; love in all its yearnings and efforts is innocent. Everything can be brought to it, fully surrendered, and made whole. Nothing is too lost, too damaged, or irredeemable. Love is our true home.
I then placed blessings in all wombs and hearts, asking for a restoration of the heart connection in all. I asked for all to experience love from their divine spark, even if it was only the tiniest of stirrings available at this time. Love needs more demonstrative foot soldiers on the ground. Love is calling us back to ourselves, out of the nonsensical reactive distractions in the world. Love is turning the heat up to lead all back to their own counsel and connection. Love will continue to incite frustration and failure in the pathways of distortion. Earth is reclaiming her divine inheritance and position as love in the higher realms. Those wishing to live on her upgraded soil will need to align to the higher dimensional version of themselves. We do this together. We create the new by becoming the energy we wish to experience or manifest in form. We then attract our circumstances according to the energy we are transmitting. Those seeking peace in their lives, must become it. Those chasing love in the wrong places, will be led to face the inner conflicts and illusions of their own making. There will be no respite or rescue externally, that does not have an origin within. The good news is, we designed the elements of our incarnation here, and are guided and supported on a soul level through its entirety.
We are here to rise empowered and sovereign in love. We are not left in illusions and distortion indefinitely. We have compromised ourselves long enough. We have mistakenly normalized our worst feelings and behaviors as our true nature, and designated love, compassion, courage, and ingenuity as a rarity. Prepare to have your world flip. Consider the truth is the opposite of what you know. Let yourself not know and be curious, excited, inspired, and guided in each moment. Humanity is expanding beyond its previously set limitations and conditions of possibility. Love is calling us each to pave new pathways of engagement and experience. We are to imagine and fulfill our highest potential instead of repeating old historic or prophetic expectations.
We are being rewired and expanded in upgrades of light. September has been a harvest on many levels. Some delivered surprising endings, some we knew were in route, others were returns on things we seeded long ago. We are being pulled increasingly to live in the flow state of creation. To learn to let things go with more ease and grace, knowing that another aligned energy and opening is arriving in its place.
We are additionally experiencing the mind’s ability to exhaust itself, so we can restore feeling back to its proper place in our intuitive guidance system. We don’t always need to mentally know why something is not for us. We are better informed as we allow and ground feeling and awareness back into our bodies, to then learn to trust what our energy is telling us. The next phase of life on earth reinstates love, joy, freedom, and compassion as foundational principles of creation and experience. We want to feel every bit of our authentic frequencies as they return to the earth plane’s bandwidth of creation.
Forgiveness is another aspect of love that is relevant to these times. Can we imagine what life on earth is like when all is forgiven? When all are free to express and create their heart’s true desires without fear of judgment, persecution, or recrimination? This too, is to be embodied, enacted, and lived here in these tumultuous times, as a means of birthing and grounding it into physical expression and possibility.
Forgiveness is a central theme for me in this life. I still encounter challenges, mostly in forgiving myself. Forgiveness is a commitment. It is something we must open ourselves to, and be willing to change the energy we are in with a person or situation. It isn’t about exonerating someone or approving of an event that was hurtful. It isn’t to justify a wrongdoing. Forgiveness is a mechanism of love that shifts the energy of an event that’s stored in the body. Holding on to anger and righteousness might feel good for a time. It may feel like strength and help delay processing the more vulnerable parts of the hurt. It is however, corrosive to carry, and creates blocks and disease in the body. I have personally felt the lightening of forgiveness in a very physical and tangible sense. Forgiveness uplifts and frees energy, additionally allowing for a new perception point and higher understanding. Forgiveness severs attachments and cords to lower frequency energy or beings, freeing one to a new higher experience. It is far more than a philosophical or moral concept in its application.
To become and experience unconditional love here, at a time when fear, judgment, divisiveness, and shame are the more common pathways and choices employed, has required me to accept unlimited forgiveness as a path as well. The deeper I delve into myself, my past, my other incarnations, and my other dimensional aspects, I realize I have played many roles in both dark and light. I have understood what escaped me in understanding and awareness at times, that allowed and encouraged me to hurt others, is what befalls most here. Being born and conditioned with limited and ignorant settings, in cultures that reinforce survival and competition strategies, help maintain it. Any of us, given the right set of circumstances and deprivations, would find ourselves willing to compromise and question many of our cherished notions, ethics, boundaries, and ideals. Most of what people are doing here to each other, is not personal. Confusion, distortion, and delusion are rampant in the maze of the 3D matrix of reality. When we remember truth, when we heal, when we know better, we do better. We then see the problems in the structures of the maze itself, and discover we have had the way out of it inside us all along.
We also see the kinship we have with all life, and forgiveness becomes a natural part of who we are… We remember, we relate, and we release what holds us back. We know this act of freedom ripples out in ways that uplift many.
September closed out for me in deep surrender in the Dreamtime. I was with my family on the ocean, and many were gathered there. We were all called to make sacrifices to the water. Each of us knew what we needed to be willing to let go of, and we all went into the water to place our offerings. I had four, but the one that stood out in my waking memory was the grief and guilt I still held for one of my pets. The ocean of love wasn’t asking us to release things that we loved or cherished. We were being asked to surrender our pain. We ARE being asked to let go of our mental and emotional attachments and constructs that keep us in suffering. It was so beautiful to behold people of all faiths, cultures, ages, and walks of life, coming together to the water in reverence and willingness to lay down their burdens. Some of their hurts were their comforts and all they had known for a long time. I awoke with a specific pain in my heart, and as I insulated and filled it with love, I relinquished a distorted core belief in me that I carried and perceived for a long time. It was the belief that “Love isn’t real. Love isn’t safe, and others can’t be trusted. I will never have the love that I want.” As the distortion unraveled, the love was able to be directed to all of the timelines, creations, and experiences it had affected. I was then able to clear it from my lineages, replacing it with the upgraded frequencies and templates of Divine Love. With transformation, comes more freedom and feeling, allowing more love to be present in all of my relationships and circumstances.
What will you sacrifice from September? Where can you acknowledge pain, attachments, or detrimental beliefs and habits in yourself that are in the way of you receiving and being love? Where are you called to surrender? Can you live in a state of surrender in life, trusting you are held and uplifted by love in each moment when you do? Do you trust love? Do you remember it as the truth of who you are?
I would love to hear from you about your September! Hoping to see you soon at the sacred waters of surrender.💙🧜♀️
From Purgatory to Peace
August has brought a fierce heat and required us to surrender to the fires of transmutation on multiple levels. We fear fire and often mourn what it reclaims, but we forget fire is an alchemical agent. What survives it is transformed, refined, and stronger; what succumbs to it makes space for something new to blossom. Fire is part of life and creation. We contain sparks within us, affording us creational agency, passion, and excitement. We are no stranger to life’s transformational tools, though we often don’t recognize them as such when we are in their intensity.
When we observe nature, we become aware of the cycles, patterns, and rhythms that facilitate and guide all life. We are part of them, guided by them, and facilitators of them in our own way. As much as we think we have control when we advance ourselves in some area, we are at times reminded of our subservient position to the grander forces and designs at play.
The manifestations of these forces can seem destructive, punitive, and cruel to those living in a lower frequency bandwidth of perception. From that view, loss is unjust and forever. Life is cut short and unfinished mistakenly. People seem victims of life, lucky or unlucky in their draw at birth. Death is menacing and predatory. Some belief systems preach death’s dark intentions as an avoidable fate mitigated only by an exclusive set of rules or submission to a deity. Fear is a currency that is used to drive life in subjugation, and eternity is held as an unimaginable possibility and option for a select few.
As consciousness rises into the higher bandwidth of assured eternal origin and inevitability, however, fear simply becomes an illusory block to divine flow and potential. Fear is a misunderstanding or misperception, in the way of a higher truth. Fear productively, becomes the direct path to access transformation. Fear does not stop action or cause retraction, rather it warrants investigation and illumination. Fear that is fully recognized and processed, is then easily dismissed, or dissipated when encountered again in another person or situation.
We are shedding many old layers of experience, some inherited and not originating with us in this lifetime. To rise, we must see where we hold old energies, imbalances, and entanglements in lower realms of experience, relationship, and belief. They are blocks and limits to expansion. Life exists in perpetual motion; we are in phases of expansion and contraction, birth and death, ongoing and often simultaneously. Saying yes to life is saying yes to death and its various forms and agents.
August called forth a culmination of karmic residue and responsibility. We have increasingly been guided by death’s direction and new offerings, and what we refuse to acknowledge is aflame in our awareness or exploding in our reality. Old ways, comforts, and roles won’t get us through. Some are falling away completely and won’t be available anymore. If we are perceptive, this has been coming for a long time. If we are honest, we are relieved with some closures, and terrified with others. Have we ever considered who a butterfly is inside the chrysalis, as we marvel after at the glory of its wings?
I experienced my karmic climax over the course of moving my youngest daughter to college. I of course knew it was impending for quite some time and had waves of emotion surface leading up to the event, but the enactment itself brought additional ancestral accounts forward that were seeking acknowledgement and liberation. It can be quite a challenge to stay present in the moment while a heavy-laden toll claims its due. It is no different when the toll doesn’t originate with you. The energies can feel like your emotions, your thoughts, your feelings, your fears, your projections, your grief. You have most likely engaged in dramas with them in your own life before unknowingly, and felt victimized by their perceived threats, while projecting their enemies in your relations.
For me, it was unburdening the plight of the women in my lineages; I was filled with feeling and knowing so many dreams unfulfilled, anger, resentment, disempowerment, perceived failure or weakness, and rage. I felt an accumulation of suppressed grief and unspoken desperation. I felt an immense fear of losing worth and value as I aged. I was overcome with a loss of identity and purpose. It was disorienting at times, so I spent my mornings in meditation and spoke the Hawaiian prayer for forgiveness through my ancestral lines. I walked the earth with love, connection, and intention. I was gratefully held for the transition and present for my daughter’s initiation into her new chapter.
I knew what I was stepping into when we first entered our cabin on the mountain. I was immediately greeted by a newly emerged locust on the porch. The metamorphosis phase of the locust informed me of the state I was in and its intended outcome. I felt the vulnerability and rawness of one that had shed its former skin. I was told the transformation was already in place and reminded of my wings. I then got to see the locust take its first flight. I kept the shell for my prayers and was guided to release the old skin on the last day in honor of what was experienced but is no more. As I went to go, there was another empty shell in gravel at my feet. I was told to acknowledge my husband’s transformation too, and to allow him to be new. The women in me had so much mistrust, anger, resentment, and fear of the power and position of men. They lived so many toxic relationships and imbalances. Some of the women grew cold and saw the men as dangerous fire. The men carried their own burdens in the mix, but emotional connections and understanding between the sexes were not well-trodden in my line. Men were often a source of income, but also conflict between family and friends. I had carried these attitudes forth early on in my marriage. They were settings I didn’t know to question, relationships I grew up seeing, dynamics I played out with my husband, and assignations I placed on him often.
The most important thing to recognize while being a vehicle for a collective’s passage of the past, is to know your ability to change it for yourself. You are supported by many generations in doing so. Sometimes unresolved voices simply want to be acknowledged, sometimes their pain and stories felt and understood, sometimes gifts and wisdom want to be passed down, but always the bearers of the karmic weight want to be set free. Old vows, traumas, grudges, and burdens have ways of being passed on down the line and hardwired into various manifestations of mental, emotional, and physical inheritance. Many generations felt helpless in their lot. Many didn’t know they had the power to change familial or societal traditions and expectations. For most, these frameworks of experience were prisons and perspectives that they were obligated to carry forth out of honor in sacrifice to the greater good of their people. Some families were entrained to certain behaviors and beliefs through religious influence, others through economic and social status. The chains of our past shape our possibilities from the inside out, until we know we have personal agency, and our kin on the other side celebrating our ingenuity and innovation. We are not doomed to repeat patterns; we are often brought to the energies intentionally to create new outcomes.
In my most recent prayer gathering, I invited my ancestors for communion. They gently reminded me that I am also here to enjoy the wisdom and fruits of their labor. I had focused so much on the task of clearing and integrating traumatic energy, that I forgot about the gifts and treasures available. We can call on them to offer their strength and guidance. No matter how imperfect or unapproachable they seemed in their human form, there is the spiritual nature of our kinfolk that holds understanding and insight beyond their capacity in the physical world. As I marveled at what should have been obvious to me, they had an offering.
A young male stepped forward that appeared to be a hunter or warrior type. He was shirtless and wore a lion’s headdress. He introduced himself as more of an adventurer than a fighter, although he fought hard to find his way. He gifted me with the spirit of assertion and exploration. He had left home and all he knew to cross an ocean to a completely unknown land. He knew he had to make his own way, and he learned new languages and manners to get through. He assimilated to a certain point, but he maintained his authenticity and belief in his greatness. He held his love for his family and saw his pursuits as extensions of its love and honor. He reminded me that this is part of me, and that it existed in both sides of my family. He said although the roles were slightly different, both men and women blazed this trail. He acknowledged the new territory we were in on earth now, but assured me I had what I needed to succeed. I felt the energetic presence of the gift inside and was deeply grateful for his experience and the exchange. I am now seeing every day as a new adventure. We are in unprecedented times and evolutionary changes. It is beyond important to stay grounded, to know our roots and depth, and to hold our value and vision for the sake of all life.
All of life on earth is our family. There are lives we spent as trees, animals, and otherworldly beings. Our ancestry is vast and full of magic and medicine. So many various life forms have shown up in response to my prayers and offerings to the earth during this transition. Love is the unifying ingredient. WE are not strangers to each other or life. When we are drawn to things, even those that are seemingly different or difficult, we are seeking recognition and reconnection for a purpose. Some things that show up are outside of a belief system or familiar face, but they are known to us in our hearts.
I was recently visited by a Lakota legend named White Buffalo Calf Woman while I was in intense pain and grief. As I opened my prayer ritual and circle, she was there waiting. She came to me and placed her hand on my chest. I was immediately overcome by a force of tranquility. She told me that the stillness and peace that I felt was the true nature of reality. She assured me that all of the surface disturbances and complexities in emotion, division, and story, are not real. We are experiencing and shedding many imprints of emotion and perception that are distortions of truth, and that it is important to surrender all of them to what’s real. She said that the world needs those that are ready to embody this peace. The world needs examples and demonstrations of this now. She encouraged me to make time for truth and peace in my day. This is not something I get from outside me. We are encouraged to seek our truth, peace, and stillness inside. It is from this place that we will live, share, create, build, and birth the new earth. It is from this place we will know we are love and stop looking outside for validation or completion. We are already the love that we seek. We are already our purpose and our success. We are already that which we seek in the outer world. We are learning to master ourselves to receive in the outer world that which we activate from inside.
To access and embody more of the peace we are, we are detoxing the denser karmic distortions and residue we have accrued over many lifetimes and experiences. When we understand what’s happening, we can give ourselves the space and time to prioritize this process, without projecting fear or danger into our current circumstances. Our bodies are releasing and mutating ongoing. We can offer support to our bodies by attending to what they require as needed. Sometimes they require changes in nourishment, rest, and activity. Exercise and movement are good ways to shift energy in the body when we don’t have a healing modality or practice. Writing, singing, and speaking help with shifting stories and intentions. If you haven’t tried speaking the release or claim of something for yourself, try it. Prayer is communication with your spirit. Consider that your body and voice are instruments of expression and creation for the you existing beyond form.
We are closing out August with a full blue supermoon in Pisces, while 6 planets are retrograde. What do you need to see in yourself and your current circumstances that need upgrades? What do you need to let go? Are you carrying forth old stories, beliefs, emotions, projections, defenses, prejudices, conflicts, imbalances, relations, or distortions that prevent you from assuming your power and mastery as a divine creator being of love? What disturbs or dishonors your PEACE? Paradigms are shifting, narratives are flipping, and systems are breaking down for you to rebuild and align your life to your authenticity. It’s a process, it’s a blessing; it’s a procedure procured by PEACE itself to secure the golden age on earth imagined and foretold for ages.
Where can you find peace in yourself? Your day? Your relationships? Your communities? Your landscape? Your work? Your mindset? We are bridging this peace in each moment, choice, intention, relationship, action, opportunity, and creation. Take notice of those in your atmosphere that instill peace; discern all that you invite into it that brings its opposition. We are practicing standing in our true nature no matter the circumstance. You are only here response-ably to be you. Choose wisely and treat kindly.
I would love to hear from you about your August experience! Let’s come together to share and bridge, WHAT BRINGS YOU PEACE?
Employing the Freedom to Dream
July came in with a heat and intensity that is lighting new fires of possibility, and burning out reservoirs of unconscious and unnecessary excess. Fire molds and shapes as it decimates and destroys. New identities and realizations are emerging, allowing new life to unfold from any surmounting ashes.
As we contemplated and celebrated freedom in the USA for Independence Day, much was going on in the etheric realms to further address the energetic shackles still unrealized by many in the physical world. The physical is a manifestation of energy that exists in operation on multiple levels, most unseen or perceived by our body’s traditional sensory capabilities. We are taught to disregard other aspects of our consciousness as unreal or imaginary, despite their influence and information that is crucial in contributing to creation.
As we awaken to our multidimensional nature, and learn to utilize our body’s divine technology, we open ourselves to what is affecting us and our world in other realms. We realize there is no separation between realms; it is our awareness and willingness to address our position in these other aspects of consciousness that can help us advance and empower ourselves in new ways. When viewed from an energetic and impersonal standpoint, we become less emotionally entangled in conflict and fear. We know that exploring our own psyche and its symbolism, is key to navigating life’s perpetual changes. Fear in all forms contains a lower frequency to be addressed and transmuted, no matter how big or universally influential it may seem.
Freedom is also a frequency, and it has been fought for, cultivated, wielded, and experienced in peaks of creation that ripple out with purpose. July 4th is one of these peak times, and astrologically its date was not chosen at random. It signifies a stellar gateway when our sun connects to the sun of Sirius, allowing a higher frequency of freedom to be accessed. In preparation for this year’s influx of higher frequencies, much restrictive interference was removed and transmuted in the unconscious realms, allowing more to access their own truth, recognize relevant deceit and disclosure, and allow the emotional processing that follows revelation to assist in arriving at a new perception point. We are living in times of rapid energetic transition, transmutation, and transformation; all on earth are undergoing this together, regardless of where they are in their respective understandings or choices.
Because we are one with life, we need not fear our fate in addressing any darkness we are currently facing. We each carry a facet of creation’s purpose, with a future designed and secured by us in the larger picture at play. We are here to be our true selves and can only know our way from exploring our divine connection and nature within. We are given guidance and direction ongoing. All of our life is our creation, and we can only succeed in mastering ourselves. This is an act of service, naturally contributing to the greater good. When we remember and embody our true nature as LOVE, right action and alignment arise naturally.
Can we trust this to be true in times of conflict? In war? In sorrow?
Can we be present with the changing tides, continuing to anchor in the love eternal inside ourselves?
Can we recognize our emotional triggers as areas of inner significance, instead of projecting blame on an outer source?
We hold the energy of magnetism and manifestation for our circumstances; can we recognize our stories, beliefs, defenses, and behavioral habits that determine our perceptions and results?
Can we own ALL of it, in the way of empowerment and not blame?
Can we bring forth the new we seek in ourselves first, rather than waiting for another to change?
Can we accept that universal love is unconditional?
Can we offer love to ourselves? Our families? Our perceived enemies?
Can we look at our discomforts and judgments as opportunities to explore past experiences that are unhealed or unprocessed?
Can we trust the universal laws of justice and karma to deliver a return in energy to each that is appropriate and beneficial to love’s purpose?
I remember a time I was grappling with justice myself in situations that I felt were cruel and unfair. I mistakenly thought there was an outcome that would stop or justify the pain I was in, or that there was this one thing to set it fair and right. My guiding angels quickly pulled me up, up, up, and higher to a near cosmic view that helped me to see the multitude of situations and perspectives being balanced and meted out. It helped me to surrender my personal desires, limited ideas, and attempts at control, in a willingness to allow a higher outcome for all.
We are at this point in humanity, where our collective limited ideas and outworn systems are being surrendered to the higher operating intelligence of Love that is now more tangibly available. The lower frequency systems rooted in fear, lack, and separation are no match for the higher light templates, codes, and frequencies streaming through the planet. This is a fundamental change that is inescapable, although there is a freedom in choice that determines the alignment and ride. Belief in being a victim of an unjust reality, only assures one’s place and experience in such. Perception and imagination are powerful tools of creation, with effects and results in energy and alignment.
The first week of July was heavenly for me. Spring brought a lot in the way of karmic closure and relationship adjustments that freed more of my energy to feel fulfilled and whole. I was on the ocean, which is a place of restoration and expansion for me. I felt held and in an exchange of abundant life and love, allowing me to receive confirmation on a vision I received two years ago. I connected to a physical place I had encountered in a dream, and was given the opportunity to accept another course in life that will be very different from what I have lived so far.
After soulful reflection, I accepted the invitation knowing I had already done so in other realms of creation. I then said my goodbyes and thanked the land, sea, and its messengers for an amazing time and offer. I came home buzzing with excitement and pregnant with the possibility. I began researching and making contacts along the path of physicalizing the deal. There is a means availing itself, but there is also a timing. I know there are energy clearings and adjustments that I will go through ongoing to ensure I am a match for this new life. There will be things for me to let go, things for me to learn, things for me to take a risk.
This was emphasized in a series of dreams that I had once I returned home. I began dreaming to clear fears, relationship traumas, conflicting beliefs, and expectations of negative outcomes. We hold so much of this in our subconscious, and dreams in part, are ways for us to address these aspects when we are aware of our messaging system and its symbolism. I realized I was being shown the things in the way of me taking my next step so I could release them and choose a new script.
This process further culminated in a dream where I visited the land I connected to, and discovered my friend was there already with her family. She was very pregnant, and in my dreams pregnancy often symbolizes a new creation, opportunity, life, or desire. This friend is typically aggressive in going for what she wants in life, so she was impatient in the dream and wanted to rush her delivery. She called for someone to bring a hooking device to break her water. I was alarmed and tried to talk her out of it, seeing the potential in hurting the baby in the process. I told her that nature has its own timing that is best, but she proceeded any way. She then packed up and got into the ocean to head back home. I warned her again of contamination in the water posing a risk to her baby since they had opened the amniotic sac. She ignored me a second time, wanting it to hurry to fit her schedule. I was left there with a foreboding feeling, knowing I was in the beginning of my gestation period with this vision, and that I would not make the same mistakes.
I awoke understanding the importance of divine timing, and the opportunity available in savoring each step and moment. The journey is the point, each step crucial and meaningful, no matter how mundane or menial. I look back on the last chapter of my life and see how magnificent my changes and accomplishments are to me BECAUSE of the love and labor that built and sustained them over time. In having connected to the future vision, I realize how much in my life and self will change to get there. I accept where I am now and will approach each step with gratitude and presence to the best of my ability. For now I have a dream, and the taste and uplifting hope of its realization. This is where imagination comes into our toolbox, because to go where we haven’t been we must imagine it first. I do so lightly, remembering my limited view from the angels’ tutelage, and I let my feelings of excitement, love, and gratitude fill in the blanks. I received a preview of its attainment in feeling, so it is there I will play to entrain my system to deliver the physical result in kind.
This is also where I go when I envision, embrace, and enliven the new earth. New earth is being bridged and fortified by dreamers and visionaries. This doesn’t mean it is happening only in the realm of ideas and mind, true light bearers are grounded in their bodies and realities, while unafraid to explore and go beyond. So much is being addressed and accomplished in the etheric realms to secure physical changes that don’t seem possible now. To get there, we must play in the higher potentialities, open ourselves to embody the higher frequencies, and believe and act on the information and opportunities we are receiving inside us. We must be willing to hold to ideals and virtues that are uncommon and unappreciated, to act in alignment with them and with our truth even when misunderstood, and to pave new ways of being that go beyond reacting with the same energy and anger of any conflict or problem. The new earth is secured through those willing to see beyond duality, act in the consideration of unity, and forgive the ignorance and brutality. There are resolutions where the energy is elevated and united; blame is separation, stagnation, and disempowerment–period.
As we contemplate freedom on personal and collective levels, let us remember the power of one. One love that is animating all life, and one love inside each, despite the varying external stories and forms. August will bring another Sirian alignment in the 8/8 lion’s gate portal. Let it call up the lion’s courageous heart in you, in service to the earth evolution underway.
What dreams are you contemplating at this time personally? Collectively? Are you aware of the many creational elements active in you when you are trying to build or launch a new idea, creation, or foundation? Are you open to all the dimensional aspects of you that guide you in different ways, channels, and levels of consciousness?
Do you know the healing and creative power of dreams? Can you nurture a seed inside you patiently and considerately while your energies shift and align to offer you steps in the appropriate timing?
The earth needs dreamers and dream weavers to hold the intent, visions, and energies of healing and wholeness for her and all her children. It doesn’t matter where we were before, what is common now, or what others will do. What is possible in your heart? What do you know is true and being called up inside of you? If you can be it and live it, it is attainable and will grow in sustainability the more it is available to others. Do you know the power of a spark? Of a wave? You are a force creating ripples in the ocean, holding the space for the water to rise higher and higher. Whatever your higher vision is for yourself, your home, your family, your community, your country, your world, or your universe, plant it in your heart. Hold it in a spacious area of freedom and faith. Water it regularly with unconditional love and the good feelings that erupt inside when you think of it. Let the warmth of the sun and the light of divine intelligence shine on its face. Nurture it and act as if it so. See its possibility in every encounter and landscape. Know it is alive. It is alive in you, and you keep it alive in every breath, every thought, every choice, and every step you take in getting there….
Wherever you are, it is there. It exists already and is made possible through you.
I would love for you to share any visions that you want acknowledged here. We are learning to get comfortable in asking for what we really want, and allowing ourselves to believe and receive. It takes practice at first to override our old default settings. Keep dreaming and planting! Happy New Moon 🌚💙
Tigress of Integrity
June started with an amazing dream encounter. I was visited by a parade of tigers. All were multi-colored and sparkling with various jewels and fancy adornments. I locked eyes with one for a long time and connected to a goddess energy. She was fierce in her love, secure in herself, and in service to a higher truth that allows her to be unaffected by any chaos she sees in the world. She knows her strength and direct connection to life, and allows herself to be directed by its ebb and flow..
She arrived after a culmination of karmic resolution with the feminine aspect in my life. The month of April brought a situation that allowed me to see the darker dynamics of one side of my family that I had suppressed for the sake of peace. I was still able to navigate things on the surface diplomatically, while addressing the energies inside me that were long ignored. Instead of giving my power away to old childhood pain, or returning the hostility encountered in another, I experienced myself coming from a place of love and detachment. I allowed my feelings, acknowledged them and parented myself privately, while I held a space for others to feel angry, threatened, and unkind. From detachment I was able to literally see the fear patterns as a shroud of darkness preventing them from connecting to the love. I saw the fear narratives and intentions running too. I experienced myself unaffected by them as I chose to be, noticing the directed anger was impersonal and couldn’t penetrate the love I held for myself and the situation. When I felt a slight and my wounded child sprang up in defense, I spoke silently inside offering love and affirmations of worth, and felt a warm energy radiate from my heart lifting me into a higher experience of wholeness. I did not need anything or anyone outside of me to change, to make me feel better. I am capable myself, and I acknowledged their right and ability to choose their own grace and pace.
I have grown more comfortable in being open and present in my encounters, without any need to assess for protection or safety first. It took some time to see my walls and their effect on my experiences. It also took an ongoing commitment and discipline to shift the energy. Trust in others, directly correlates to trust in self. When we experience violations in our early years, it diminishes both.
In the same vein, growth in one area also contributes to progress in the other. As we heal the lower frequency traumas in ourselves, we attract higher outcomes, and see clearly where the lower is present to secure ourselves naturally. Our resolutions are medicine for any similar energetic matches in our reality. We may attract others with similar experiences to be inspired by our success. How we overcome things, is inspiration and a higher frequency for that possibility in others.
May took me to the other side of the family, to wrap up a situation I had been working on for over the last year. In truth, I was always entangled more on this side of the family, so the inner work was often focused there.
One of my children graduated high school, throwing many together in celebration and closure that was a rite of passage that rippled out. I knew I was emerging in one sense; I was opening my home after many changes and time apart. With the rebirth of Easter, my home underwent a complete purge and makeover. I knew it was spiritually supported and symbolic. The inspiration and means came together quickly and easily, and I could see it was reflective of the work and success we accomplished in ourselves and as a family. I also felt a chapter closing in my life that necessitated a clearing of the old, to make space for the new.
The transformation was on all levels. My body started moving old emotional energy, while physically clearing through an intense menstrual cycle, and transmuting childhood energy in a surge of poison ivy that erupted on my arms. I was being challenged to address my inner needs, while hosting and attending gatherings for my daughter and guests. A few came with unhealed hurt and attachments that were directed at me. I observed but remained diplomatic and neutral. I was again able to see the energy and experience myself unaffected by it. Any emotional residue that was left, was accepted and allowed to process in me without any drama or need to involve others. I saw again, the impersonal nature of it, although it was aimed and projected at me. After I addressed any personal wounds from childhood, and feelings of disappointment, I had compassion for all in their process. I relieved myself fully from any perceived obligation or temptation to explain or fix anything with another. The result was LIBERATION, with permission granted for us all to progress at our own pace, with our choices, and our understandings regardless of our status of agreement.
These events helped me to come more into my own. I did not need my worth or changes validated outside of me, I embodied them and experienced them myself. I let myself acknowledge the victories and treasures unapologetically, knowing I could feel good for the good in my life even when others were unable or unwilling to join. Guilt has vacated, along with a pervasive shame that was always there keeping me in my place, awaiting a punishment I imagined I deserved.
April and May brought many opportunities for healing and closure to major themes, challenges, and identities in my story. I was given opportunities to put my choices and ideals into practice and action, both serving as necessary components to shift patterns and frequency in the physical. I had been working toward the freedom and abundance I am currently experiencing now for a long time. These incidents felt like loose ends that still took up some of my energy and space in my psyche, requiring adjustment and redirection. Old limiting views and beliefs about myself and my abilities must expand if I am going to step into something new and enjoy the fruits of my labor.
Despite the challenges, a sense of gratitude and grace was continuously present and felt. New doors also opened, with new relations that reflected the higher qualities I had worked toward. It became apparent to me, that I was simply being encouraged to assess the energy constructs and connections I still had in operation, some unconsciously, to choose what I wanted to continue moving forward with in investment. We are increasingly being shown truth: the truth in our relationships, our thoughts, our choices, and our circumstances on personal and collective scales. If we are not emotionally or mentally invested and connected to the divisive conflicts and dramas stirred up in the social atmosphere, we are not experiencing the entrapment and despair befalling many. We are beings with creative intent and choice, complicit in our own undoing or empowerment. The choice is ours. Are we energizing someone else’s agenda and narrative, or determining and delighting in our own? We are here to fulfill our unique purpose and destiny, which is always in concert with our divine connection. We are divine in nature and need only remember and cultivate this truth in ourselves to find our way.
For me, this required declarations and demonstrations of the energy I wanted to embody and experience. It did not matter what was common or traditional in my reality, what did I want in my heart? If I wanted love, then it was for me to invite it, bring it, BE it. When I was rejected or met with another quality, I could still choose love. I could be compassion, without diminishing or harming myself in any way. Who I am, what I choose, how I act is on me.
Can hatred and misunderstanding be met with love? Yes
Can ignorance and fear elicit compassion? Absolutely
Love is truth, and truth is not tarnished or diminished by misperceptions or distortions. Truth has no agenda, just mechanisms of energy, experience, and creation that stand on their own whether one adheres to them consciously or not. All are still subject to them and any resulting consequences or effects arising from choices made or actions taken that are contrary.
In a lower frequency bandwidth of experience on earth, we were limited and imprisoned by the distortions in thought and density of suppressed emotions. We were manipulated in ways to keep us in a manageable state, only accessing a small portion of our inherent wisdom and potential. We have lived out of balance, suppressing the feminine polarity of creation mentally, emotionally, and physically in ways that are detrimental to our species and planet. What we do to ourselves, is reflected in nature, and vice versa. There is no separation.
The tigress I merged with in my dream, is an energy returning to a position of power here. She is rising in all of us, commanding a return to love, and the right use of life force. She knows how to hold space for a higher vision and focus her energy and intent exclusively there to dream into being what is possible, rather than settling for same or waiting for saved. She speaks in feeling and symbol. She guides from the heart and skills with imagination, creative play, and song. She knows her realm is the space of creation, and she is not limited by the patterns and frameworks that inhabit and serve to enhance it. She is in love and harmony with the masculine aspect, operating in tandem in all creation. She knows through him her manifestations are implemented and protected.
As more awaken to her calling, and balance these forces inside themselves, solutions outside of the current mental constructs will be realized and executed. Barriers of fear will be easily recognized and reclaimed inside, removing their effects externally and allowing acceptance and unity to override the need to be right, or better, or validated from another. A love and trust in life will return. Emotions will be recognized and processed effectively, without projecting and reacting inappropriately toward others. The wounds and fears of our early childhood and past, won’t be allowed to haunt and influence our present foundations.
The Tigress asks us to rise in majesty and maturity. She reminds us that we are one with life and born with a sacred responsibility. We are strong enough to hold the higher truth with love in our hearts, and compassion for those exploring paths and timing different from our own. In honoring the higher love and its guidance inside us, we are united and supported by forces much vaster than we can perceive, assisting us in pioneering changes that will serve creation and usher the earth into a new era of peace.
The next night I was with two tigers, male and female. In the dream they were slightly restless and hungry, and I was keeping them tame in a crowd of people. There were smaller domesticated cats around that I was worried the tigers would harm from their size difference, or attempt to eat because of their hunger. They needed to be fed. I awoke understanding this to be related to my passionate and creative fire; a fire that needs an outlet and stimulation to be managed and effectively handled. When we have build-ups of unsatisfied or unrecognized emotions and thoughts with no direction or healthy release, we often take them out on others. If we have little understanding of our emotions, we project them on to others or make others responsible for what we are feeling. As we increase our light quotient and potency, we also expand our impact and influence on those around us. Mastering our thoughts and emotions is key to contributing positively to our environment. As humanity continues to process all emotional residue personally and collectively, confusion and reactivity will be experienced by many. More are needed to demonstrate energetic mastery, to help channel the lower frequency emotions into higher creative inspirations and innovations that uplift all.
The depths of our experiences are rising for us to be internally fulfilled and free. Love has purpose for our unique expressions and medicine. Walk with tiger and imagine what the universe can accomplish through you!
Marching Forward in Abundance
Spring is soliciting new choices, attitudes, behaviors, and beginnings. Being relieved of many ancestral karmic debts and stories, I am learning what it is to live without a story at all. It takes a little practice getting comfortable with surrendering to whatever the moment brings, in full trust in my ability to handle it. I have been shown time after time that the higher soul aspect of myself has my best interest at heart. I am continually shown I am not alone, and reminded of the interactive and intelligent support in the life forms around me both seen and unseen, that are but a call away. Detoxing the long accrued survival and separation energies from our systems takes commitment, effort, and patience. We have convinced ourselves that we need to control the elements of our reality to stay safe, but the true work lies in mastering the influencing agents inside ourselves.
As cliched as it sounds, this is all for love, we are all in love, and we are love itself in various journeys through time sequences and emotional experiences. In a planetary cycle of ascension, we are unraveling the effects of time on our eternal state to allow a higher truth and experience in creation. This is on many levels simultaneously, because we are connected to everything, existing in a unified field containing multiple dimensions. Everything rises together, although each expression is allowed a timing and path unique to their design and purpose. Life is truly is magical, and when you set your heart on the setting of love, it shows up in various expressions around you.
New ideas and creations are awaiting expression through you. Can you trust your destiny? You have a choice in the energy you want to move forward with at this time. Old stories, beliefs, traumas, and prophecies are surfacing to be reclaimed by love, NOT to be repeated or recreated. As the frequency rises, we get more immediate returns on the energies we choose. If we hold on to fear, anger, blame, vengeance, and punitive concepts, we are not in alignment with divine love and justice, and we will reap in our realities accordingly. None of these attributes are stronger than love; they are illusions with distorted and deceptive consequences. The only effective defense and protection in addressing them is love.
March is bringing a lot of things together inside and out for our benefit. If you looked up at the night sky in the beginning of the month, you saw the planets Venus and Jupiter come together. A little later in the month, you could see Venus lined up with Uranus, and with app help you could still see Jupiter close to her in alignment. As we approach the end of the month 5 planets will line up visibly in the sky.
As above so below. Everyone will have their own personal connections and influences with these planets, but to me, with Uranus and Venus I felt a validation of the freeing of the feminine I was experiencing inside me. She had been burdened with centuries of disempowering and despairing experiences and perceptions that encouraged her to be at odds with the world. She perceived herself victim and prisoner often, the conscious use of her will and awareness of her needs buried under layers of sexual misuse/abuse, arranged and unsatisfying marriages, betrayal, bitterness, and resentment. She was encouraged to see men as her captors and perpetrators, and other women as untrustworthy competitors in the game of toxic relationships. Her identification and belief in this framework only trapped her in a cycle of shame, blame, and impotency. Emotions that were not even hers, kept her in the deep end of a tumultuous pool, never finding the tributary leading to the ocean. All of this perpetuating and creating narratives in her own life that only validated her ancestors’ experiences, and added personal layers of her own to compound them.
My wedding day, 18 years old in 1994.
The story of my feminine changed in a moment of clarifying release and transformation during the Virgo full moon. As I cried in the tub, I felt and saw myself held again by many of my ancestors. They rallied around me to help me transmute this energy for my lineages in all directions-past, present, and future. They shared their stories, their grief, and their misunderstandings. They emphasized that although these energies were imprinted and influencing me, they did not originate with me and they are not who I am. They helped me to see the ways I misperceived and mistreated my husband as a result, and showed me that the same was true for him and his mistakes from the past. I was freed from so much blocking our loving connection and truth, and felt a significant weight lifted in the way of shame and guilt. I appreciated their best efforts and ignorances as innocent attempts to navigate the patterns set before them. I gladly called forth divine assistance and agency to be the lightning in the family tree to resolve what I could to free the generations ahead.
Overcome with gratitude, I was then called to facilitate clearings at my favorite nature spots close to home. What is done in me is done in WE. I was guided to my favorite elders, and met with so much love, spaciousness, and peace. I was reminded of our natural state of abundance and assured we are always connected to it. It’s the energetic distortions blocking our perception and belief, that are in the way of us directly experiencing it. These distortions are being removed by the ascending frequencies streaming through the planet for those aware and open. We have a freedom of will to cling to impoverishing beliefs and constructs if we so choose, but all are affected by the ongoing shifts on earth. A great awakening is underway, with varying. times and processes unique to each divine expression. Love doesn’t use force or manipulation, but your soul is always helping you align to your truth and purpose.
When I sat with “Grandmother” at Fontainebleau State Park, her spirit communed with me after the clearing. She wants us to know that we are truly here to live our authentic purpose and nature. To do this, we must be more aware and selective of our energy. We must be present with who we are and what we are naturally aligned to in our reality. If we are caught up in agendas, stories, and dramas that don’t pertain to us, we are scattering our energy and weakening our potency in our own lives. It is truly not selfish to address what is ours, and to secure our highest positioning in our bodies and lives. It is our highest service! From a position of divine empowerment and embodiment, aligned to our true purpose, we are serving to elevate and assist the collective and planet of which we are a part. It is not the other way around, despite political and social agendas pulling people into conflicts, hopeless causes, and worst case scenarios that they have no ability to effectively change alone. We actually disrespect others and their innate abilities to do this for themselves when we inappropriately intervene. Our soul guidance knows and directs the work intended and set for us. We attract it according to our embodied frequency and skill set, instead of attempting to chase, fix, or make things fit. Grandmother insisted that the earth is far stronger than she is given credit for, and that our embodied love in action is a power magnificent and unstoppable. If we truly want to help change the world, we will take care of our own responsibilities and “backyards” first. Our elevated potency will inspire and attract others in likeness and ability. The light is growing and radiating in increasing numbers and waves. A giant cavern of darkness is instantly altered with the igniting of a tiny spark of flame. You can only light your spark from going within and honoring who you are in truth. Another’s path and process will not get you there. There is no escaping who we are becoming in this lifetime, so we might as well get on it now.
As I finished our exchange, I looked out to see a couple pointing at the top of the tree. I thanked Grandmother and joined them to witness the female owl that was perched above me the entire time. I had never seen her before, but one of the bystanders had a nice camera that caught her face, and her nest of babies. She was gorgeous, with intense eyes and an alerted stance. From afar she looked like a cat, and there was something in her gaze that was feline too. She was seen earlier that week fighting off two eagles by a couple camping at the park. I was honored to be blessed by her presence and her wisdom. She was not afraid or apologetic in exhibiting, protecting, and caring for what was hers, and I would see to my passions, duties, and creations in the same fashion. Owls are adept in the dark, and selective in how they hunt, nest, engage, and protect their own. We are encouraged to do the same. There are many choices and varieties here disguised as solutions that lead to bad ends. Your best path forward is knowing yourself, your worth, your truth, and the energies that support and honor that, and where you are going. You are here to fulfill your authentic divine purpose and service. In truth, that will never harm or injure another.
Plant your seeds and see to your dreams in love. Care for your body, and let its wisdom guide you in what it needs. We have ignored our needs, feelings, and instincts for far too long. This has created congestion in our systems that is undergoing a clearing and balancing. We are not meant to stockpile and stagnate in energy or possessions. As we shed old identities, ways, and narratives, our hearts will lead us to new adventures. Let yourself be excited instead of anxious. See to the care of all that’s tender so it can become strong and solid.
Let wild things have life inside and out. We can trust in the intelligence of the unseen and unknown operations of life to fulfill our heart’s desire. We are not here to figure it all out and control things with our mind’s intellect. Let yourself express what’s been bottled up in creative form or play. True innovation is stifled by desperation. We must break the barriers of possibility in frequency to to exceed the problems of limitation. Put yourself in the energy of these things instead of the old mindsets and ways that reaffirm what’s broken. Nature is full of inspiration and resiliency. Connect and be inspired, guided, supported, and simply loved.
My son was having a hard day last week until he was taken out of his personal sorrows by the beauty and majesty of the sky on a ride to soccer practice. My kids make fun of me for the numerous nature pics in my phone, especially of the sky, but he was moved to take these himself. I share them to share the good feelings. He says the first one makes him think of Stranger Things with the upside down.
Sometimes it’s because of the sorrows we are in, that we are able to fully appreciate the glory in contrast. Let yourself grieve, let yourself be moved, and let yourself own the fullness of it all in you. We are not here to deny or fight the darkness, we are here to meet and embrace it all with the true love inside us. We can only change and transform what we accept and acknowledge in ourselves. You are not asked or expected to fix the world outside you, but you are here to love and master what’s inside. This naturally ripples out to rearrange the reflection.
My sincerest wish, is that you come home to the peace and abundance you are inside yourself, and that this is shared and reflected in everyone and everything around you. We have the means to end all scarcity, deprivation, division, and deception plaguing humanity in our lifetime. It starts within. Life always finds a way…
Embracing Embodiment
Greetings from a lazy Mardis Gras in the Deep South. February has had a consistent intensity about it, that forced delays in physical progress and action at times. Surges in energy create purges in density. As spirit in matter, we are sensitive to changes in our surroundings. We perceive separation and limitation through the stored density in the body, and the fortified beliefs and structures to which we ascribe. They create foundations of perception that get rocked when the energy we are in changes; and we are in major planetary changes that are shifting everything in existence on earth.
The disrupted density contains slower, lower frequency blocks of residual emotions and thoughts from experiences that we are attached to, or are not finished fully processing. Sometimes we hold onto to distortions in thought and feeling from intense, scary, emotional, or traumatic experiences to better understand, heal, and move through them over time. We grow through experience here. We expand and elevate through our progressed experiential wisdom, and reclaim our innocence through the compassion and love we regain for ourselves as we increase our awareness and sacred remembrance. These February influxes have called forth major breakthroughs and resolutions for those energetically aware and working with their soul alignment. This phase of the earth’s evolution will require us to embody our source energy on a deeper level. We are becoming conscious creators and contributors to our reality and the unified environment we all share. This involves emotional and mental responsibility and mastery, and that requires us to address the monsters under the bed, in our bodies, and in our subconscious. We have various collective subconscious fields too that are being reoriented. Humanity has lived with many cultural and religious beliefs, narratives, and frameworks that continue to create limits and disruptions in our divine potential and connection. They aren’t wrong. They served purposes and truths at various periods of time. Many of these stories, characters, and myths changed their details to speak to and suit changes in the culture. Their teachings and meanings evolving with the ability and progress of their contemporaries. This does not lessen or negate their value, but instead shows the transitory nature and potential of creation itself. Last month I addressed the long-standing female mythical influence that permeates much of our disempowering and vilification of the feminine in Eve, but with this sacred rearranging we are experiencing now, I feel its time to move onto Medusa.
The story of Medusa has changed over the years. Medusa originally appeared outright as a monster. She was one sister in a trio of women so ugly that looking upon them caused the beholder to turn to stone. In this version she was the only mortal of the three, thus weakening her position and allowing her ultimate demise. As time passed, however, she became a beautiful mortal woman, that was a virginal devotee in the palace of Athena. Her good looks caught the attention of the god Poseidon, an enemy of Athena, that chose to rape Medusa in the palace to defile it. There are slight variations here, a few portraying her as a willing adulteress, inciting the jealousy and rage of Athena either way. In all, it is Athena that curses Medusa to her hideous, snake-headed form, and banishes her to isolation where any man that approached her would be met with the eternally hardened fate. The variation definitely creates a humbling and traumatized position for Medusa, one that reaffirms a cruel side of life and deity. Ironically, her name means “god’s protection” and her decapitated head, a symbol of protection to ward off evil. She was revered and hunted as an adversary, and then an omen of comfort and prowess in battle. This definitely touches on our glorification of conflict, domination, hardship, and suffering. She garnered no sympathy as a victim, but much admiration as a grotesque and violent adversary. She was ultimately bested by Hercules and her head continued to be powerful long after her demise.
Our evolution and harmonization as a species includes a rise, restoration, and balancing of the feminine aspect. Myths like Medusa’s say a lot about our relationship to the feminine, and what we valued as a culture at various times. Certain aspects of the female principle were celebrated, but many were exploited and denigrated, even by other women. As we make peace with these elements inside ourselves, we will see the stories and experiences change. The feminine’s beauty is neither her weakness nor her weapon, her embittered shadow state, is not what validates her. The feminine is an aspect of creation that exists inside all of us. She is the source of life, the unlimited space where all creations form, and the love that continues to nurture and foster growth and possibility. The feminine is receptive and potent in her passivity. She endures, believes, and abides. She does not need to fight, force, or manipulate to be effective. She only needs to recognize her feelings and vulnerabilities as gifts instead liabilities. She learns to value her voice even when its not the loudest, because wisdom is what lies beneath, not what’s taken or bought.
Our traumatized and wounded aspects are what cause us to grow in distorted ways over time. When hurt, we develop defense mechanisms in thought and feeling to insulate ourselves from future harm. What we build to keep ourselves safe, however, can also keep us from receiving positive energies and interactions. Walls defend against all. Our thoughts catered to seeing others as potential enemies, prevent us from connections that offer experiences to the contrary. We attract things to us based on the energy we hold and embody, so it is imperative to dissolve the past parameters to receive something new. If we allow ourselves to be isolated and fortified in our hurts, we end up like Medusa, unapproachable, emotionally weaponized, and alone. Today we better understand how she got there and may not see her as a monster, but can we recognize her in ourselves? Can we see where we have given our power to our hurts and victimization, and allowed our emotions and thoughts to run amok in our lives to our detriment? That is where we transcend our limits and our bondage to a lower expression and experience. We are meant to expand the internal barriers and challenge our older perceptions to embrace new opportunities.
Our weaknesses, blindspots, and wounds have been used to control and manipulate us for centuries. Elements of our nature have been recapitulated in perverted forms and fed back to us in ways that promote fear, guilt, and shame for things that are inherent and inescapable. This leaves us with a pervasive mistrust of ourselves and of life, ensuring we will give our power away to those that crown themselves as authority. We see what they are doing with their power, and we wait for someone better to come along to change it. This too is a learned response; one that has been re-enforced through the story of a savior coming, told for thousands of years. There are many variations in this also, the elements predating christianity. If we take the time to look at the teachings shared all over of the world, we can see shared symbols and truths that permeate all. There are things that are universal in the human experience, and they unite us when we can stop arguing over minute details and discrepancies to see the bigger picture.
If we take the two stories I have written about, there is a snake motif that is relevant in both. The snake was an ancient symbol for our life force energy. This energy is both sexual and creative; its potency soliciting physical urges and responses that were opportunities to exploit and control early on. In Eve, making her the culprit of luring a man into sin through sexual temptation (snake) helped make women the scapegoat for any desires and actions on a man’s part that lead to bad ends. It also yoked the power of women through internal feelings and beliefs about guilt and submission. It ensured she would be at odds with herself and her place in the world. She would be complicit in her weakened position. In Medusa’s situation, it was a sexual event that cursed her. If we go with the later versions, her beauty brought her danger, that then resulted in punishment. Her sexual energy was then weaponized beyond her control at the crown of her head, indiscriminately destroying everyone around her. Female sexuality has been under attack and subjugation for centuries, creating internal conflicts and distortions handed down through ancestry and culture. It is no surprise the result is the mass sexual violence and exploitation of women and children. What is inherently sacred and life giving, has been tainted, demoralized, and marketed for sale.
As the frequencies of life on the planet rise, however, all is restored to its proper place in value and creation. Life is not considered sacred when the feminine is desecrated. Respect and care is not given to those that foster life. Our treatment of the earth has best exemplified the effects of these misaligned belief systems and practices. Our relationship to each other, to life, and to the varying elements inside ourselves are changing to bring about a resolution. Our position of power always starts with our own liberation and divine restoration. The increases and influxes in light are assisting us in healing the underlying conflicts and untruths in our system. What scientists are calling solar flares, are divinely orchestrated impulses of energy flowing through our atmosphere to assist in elevating its frequency. They cause disturbances in the lower expressions to ensure their reclamation and integration into the higher frequency field of operation. This is not just an evolution of consciousness, it is a physical transformation as well. Because our sexual nature has been a source of manipulation, disempowerment, and enslavement, we will be guided to heal and resolve these issues in ourselves. We have been taught to fear and demonize the snake, but moving forward we will befriend this part of ourselves and lovingly own our pleasure, our vibrancy, and our potency. We will not see it as something to use or bargain as a means to survive, but instead see it as our precious life force to be consciously cultivated, managed, and protected for sustenance and creation in our lives. When I first started healing I was swallowed whole and regurgitated by a snake in the dream realms; last night I was in a place with many snakes of various colors and sizes, engaging with me positively as I continue to embody and heal more my sexual energy. This came after a significant heart opening and sexual healing I experienced last week.
I began my prayer ceremony initially, to pray for the transition of a young boy that killed himself because he was being bullied. He had loving and attentive parents that were devastated because he did not tell them about the mistreatment he was receiving online. As I connected to the situation and family to send angelic assistance and energy, the connection created an opening in me. I felt a crack in my heart open in resonance to the child, and then an out pouring of grief and a breakthrough in awareness ensued. I too had held secrets at a very young age, and consequently piled on years and layers of emotional and mental distortions on top of it in holding it. In an instant, I was able to perceive all it locked in place in hurt, in toxic relationship patterns, and in feelings of mistrust and unlovable-ness. As I brought a loving awareness to it, I felt the lighter energy come in. I was tingling all over. What followed was a full body re-balancing to accommodate the upgrades and align me to a higher level of soul embodiment. I processed energies relating to the secret events, along with the energies and distortions in thought that I held to protect and insulate me from it after. I saw how they isolated me from my family, and created a huge barrier in my ability to trust and open myself to others. When we wall off and guard ourselves, we live a half-life. We deny ourselves good feelings with the bad. I spent years drinking alcohol to anesthetize, socialize, and endure things; but drinking doesn’t make you emotionally available to others, it just numbs and steers you from being able to move through what is in the way. Drinking alcohol maintains a comfortably numb position in the lower bandwidth of denial.
I quit drinking years ago after my brother died and I could no longer avoid the healing and freedom presenting itself. The divine embodiment process comes with pain, but it ends with liberation. Circulating pain in denial and ignorance as a way of life is no way to truly live. The price of true freedom and love, is feeling and facing all that has been swept under the rug to discover the real self that is always present. There is the real you, witnessing, learning, engaging, creating, loving, through all time. We have been taught mistakingly to look for validation and esteem outside of ourselves, but true empowerment is an inside job. There is no escape from the changes underway. There is no thing or one coming to rescue us from ourselves and our creations. Our salvation comes from internal intimacy and engagement. The energy influxes will continue to affect our minds, our bodies, our circumstances. They are designed to, and are seeking to help not harm. Be wary of those pulling people into the dooms and dangers of man and nature. Seek your soul’s counsel above all the conflicting noise. Let everyone handle their karmic residue and responsibilities with compassion. Your position of empowerment aligns you to others embodying their own. We then unify in resonance, and grow in strength and frequency to assist the collective. This is an organic process; like water, spirit does not fight or force. LOVE already encompasses all.
Your body is a divine instrument that is always trying to detoxify negative interference and come into a state of higher operation, harmony, and balance. Do you know its guidance? There are processes it must undergo to mutate. As I readjusted my flow, frequency, and truth from my heart opening, my body was sore everywhere it was integrating. The pain in various parts of the body had messages and stories. I purged through mucous, blood, sweat, and waste elimination. I ran fever periodically. Heat is an alchemical agent. Instead of assigning an illness to my body, my higher self guided me to hold space for the transition with love and awareness. I addressed everything on the energetic level with prayer, meditation, and healing modalities like reiki and quantum harmonization. I gave my body the time, attention, and rest it needed to complete the upgrade. This is how I embrace my embodiment, understanding we are here to have and honor our physical vehicle and experience–not escape, diminish, or override it. We nurture what we see as sacred; our bodies are part of this evolution and hold the blocks, locks, and keys in the way.
What can you do to embrace and support your divine embodiment and evolution? LOVE is infiltrating and penetrating all layers to restore a higher peace, love, awareness, and unity to this planet. Will you join LOVE in upgrading the templates, narratives, and framework for all life here? Will you liberate yourself? Will you work with your body and help it to free you of the past? You will feel the new levels of bliss and potential activating and online for new creations as you move through the old. You are the only one that can do it for you! I wish you many blessings and breakthroughs as we enter easter season. You are no stranger to death and resurrection. Open yourself to the possibilities…🦋💜
Innovating Your Myth
January is almost gone, but in many ways it feels as if it started after the new moon on the 21st. We have been experiencing intense episodes of light anchoring on the planet, that create surges of lower frequency energy to be integrated. As the past rises to be processed, it often distorts the way we interpret and experience our present circumstances, and induces fatigue or purging symptoms in the body. We are clearing layers of fear, outdated beliefs, and trauma-responses from our subconscious personally, collectively, and globally. This will show up as old circumstances and issues resurfacing, that allow us to recognize the repetition and the cycle, to then shift patterns with awareness and a willingness to change our contribution and our story.
When there is a build up of many inner conflicts, repressed feelings, misunderstandings, and attachments to things misaligned with our divine purpose, we are met with life-altering experiences, loss, and changes in direction that gift us with new perception points and openings to build and rise again. This is not punishment, but an energetic balancing and guidance system that keeps us on track. We are here with soul support and service that we can consciously connect to for assistance in our journey. The Earth is in a realignment phase too, clearing her decks to secure a new foundation of creation that honors her star origin and birthright. She has held the weight of all bloody pursuits, appetites, and damages on her soil, but she will experience freedom, structural changes, and restoration. Much was created and depleted on earth without consideration of a harmonious balance. Life explored all directions in form as part of descending and ascending cycles of energy in time. In the descending age, the inherent innocence and love of creation was forgotten, creating many hardships and conflicts. As we ascend, innocence is being reclaimed and restored via wisdom through experience. Those that have traversed their own darkness, carry the light that is inextinguishable and available to all in their darkest night. Lightbearers have been incarnated many times in dark ages, and held the torch of truth to light the way for others as they face their own exploration of shadow. Truth has taken many shapes in various cultures to help people relate and understand their own reflection and connection to life. As we move into a new age, there are variations needed to address where we are now. Outdated stories, with limited and literal applications, will not speak to what is possible in a higher frequency field of existence.
These upgrades are part of forging new templates of experience that honor the ascending direction of creation. During centuries of dominating patriarchal preferences and mindsets, certain archetypes and narratives were formed and repeatedly donned. `They vary a little according to the place and time, but collective agreements were set as to what is a man, a woman, a hero, a leader, a saint, a martyr, a teacher, a guru, and so on. New energies call for new roles, and new stories, templates, and possibilities are in the birthing canal now. With the acceleration of accessible ideas, communication, and information, the landscape and language has drastically changed. In response, fear has risen as a companion to uncertainty while we dangle on a new edge. We must remember we are not separate from life, from creation, or from innovation. We are designed for the ride we are taking, equipped to change and adapt as part of our nature. We have held onto patterns and structures out of sync with our evolution, and as they die or face reform, so must antiquated ideas, modes, and models.
Are our stories and shared inspirations elevating us and speaking to our higher nature? Do they call better qualities forward, or remind us of our lower standards and appetites? Ancient people understood their connection to life and death, and the symbolic nature of physical expression. Everything is a manifestation of the sacred; beliefs, words, and gestures hold power, and should be appropriated consciously and reverently. Everything has an energy signature in creation. Selectivity is not about censorship or judgment as much as it is about right use of power and creational responsibility. If we look at the majority of content expressed on the internet or in our entertainment networks, are we surprised at the rise in violence, lack of empathy, exaggerated sexuality, consumerism, and depression experienced in large segments of the population?
It is obvious our artistic and spiritual cultures have changed. How we accept information and consider its influence in our lives has too. Most are taking in large amounts of data and stimuli unchallenged regularly. Technology is streaming frequencies, ideas, and scripts ongoing. Most people choose information platforms that are in agreement with their own perceptions and experiences. This helps them feel secure and validated, even when they are encouraged to be at odds with an “other.” Belonging to one side and rallying against an “other” helps us to feel right/validated, included, and special. If there are deficits from childhood in such feelings, this is especially appealing and hard to resist. Because we are conditional beings, our early experiences, impressions, longings, and wounds will determine where we fall in the group category. Our preferences in “parties” are more unconsciously patterned than we would like to think. We inherit and are hardwired with many concepts and attitudes that don’t originate with us. These preferences feel natural but it is because we are imprinted with energy formatively and carry predispositions in thought and feeling that we justify and cater our intake to ongoing to stabilize ourselves. These limited aspects of our nature are like blindspots, allowing us to be overly confident and rigid in our positions, while being manipulated in a large way.
Consider that television, film, and social media, having access to large groups of people, is a successful tool in entraining them to certain ideologies and ideas about life. People unknowingly contribute their energy to co-create movements, industries, and the agenda’s of others, even when–ESPECIALLY when they furiously attack it. Reactively opposing something is still accepting and validating it as truth on some level. Many people built empires from the fear, hatred, and objection of others historically. Fear is an energy that feeds a certain kind of being, and bad press is still far-reaching and lucrative press to many.
Is this the energy we want to continue feeding and moving forward with? We see the results in the world, and we maintain them with our refusal to take personal inventory and responsibility for our choices. Maintaining concepts like “savior,” delays personal accountability and action that is necessary to turn the tide. “Loving thy neighbor as thyself” was not an edict meant for a special few. It was not simply a moral commandment, but the truth of the energetic reality that we live in. As more progress is made in navigating the quantum field, we will increasingly accept and understand oneness as the underlying truth of our existence. We will recognize our ability to attract according to our energy signature, and accept our part when we receive reflections we dislike. We will truly experience the result of our words and gestures, and learn to be empowered by this responsibility instead of afraid. When we see something we don’t like in the mirror, we will wield compassion and forgiveness understanding the true wages of judgment and war.
We are being called to consider the collective myths, archetypes, and stereotypes that we are contributing to, and to address our own mythology on a personal level. Are we repeating roles that lead to destructive and degenerative ends, or are we becoming vessels of change and potential? Are we speaking love and hope into our future? Are we demonstrating joy, passion, and a reverence for life? Are we teaching our children inclusivity, consideration, reciprocity, and kindness toward all forms? Do we realize our children grow and express themselves according to the standards and efforts we’ve set and met in love? Children do not grow up in a vacuum, they will always show their parents, their culture, their society, and their country what they are being inflicted and imprinted with in their behavior. We must move on from the idea of a few “bad apples” and recognize our frustrated efforts, our unhealed pain, our unexpressed truths, and our perceived failures in them. Everything is a manifestation and reflection of the energy it holds, and things don’t evolve accidentally. We have spent much time in denial, but we won’t change what we refuse to acknowledge. All suppressed energy on Earth is being addressed in a planetary ascension cycle.
As I recalled bad apple, it brought to mind the proverbial apple that is responsible for many distortions in thought and belief today. If we go back to a primary creation myth illustrating our fall in consciousness, we can see how women were cast to be “justifiably” mistreated and mistrusted in Eve leading Adam into temptation in the garden. There were variations of this story, but the suppression and subdual of women and the feminine principle of creation, resulted with effects long-lasting. The apple symbolized duality and the experience of life divided. Church doctrine further emphasized that certain types of knowledge and its pursuit were dangerous and damnable. This of course allowed them to be the authority on what was appropriate, creating an imbalance in power that is very much active today in most systems of authority. Flesh/matter was deemed sinful, splitting individuals against themselves. What remains fundamentally severed in belief, is then unwilling and afraid to seek restitution in the whole. It is so consumed with its own wickedness or that of “others,” that it fails to take into account the abuses of power at the earthly helm. If one takes the time to consider the contradictions in many belief systems and their enforcers, it easily falls apart. However, early imprinting tied to threat and persecution ensured a hardwired fear and refusal to question such matters was handed down ancestrally and physically. Mandating literal and historical interpretations of ancient texts, coupled with punitive enforcement dimmed the larger population from appreciating and experiencing allegorical wisdom and ecstatic mystery. Spirit was cleaved, compartmentalized, and magic removed from the mundane. We are still musing over an apple thousands of years ago, and missing the giant Apple that is pulling everyone into a manufactured playground of solicitation and propagation.
Technology, like knowledge is not good or evil. It is the application of it that creates effects and results with karmic residue and influence. I find it interesting that the largest and wealthiest tech company in the world is named Apple. Although Apple has brought many innovations, conveniences, and expansions, it has come with a heavy price–comforts and advancements that rest on the backs of the slavery and suffering of those mining and assembling its parts. This only ensures that progress remains tainted and serving a divisive, avaricious, and downgrading agenda. Disempowerment and subservience are disguised as progressive and heroic in the new corporate ideology. In a unified field of reality, we can no longer deny what is connecting to and through us in the palm of our hands. Every man and woman is responsible for their realm. There is no excuse for ignorance, no escape from the energetic ramifications. We are held to our creations and their resounding repercussions. We must all learn to wield our power with wisdom, compassion, and integrity in consideration of the whole and world of which we are an integral part. We can re-write and re-purpose our tools, symbols, and stories to elevate and integrate all those devalued and dismissed in segregation and exploitation. Their suffering is the foundational core of the industries they bear, and it’s time we stop compromising what is priceless in life. The apple is ready to be reclaimed and recognized as a source of sweet love and nourishment. Stories and symbols have always helped us make sense and meaning of realities that were hard to accept and endure, but what if we reconstruct them to inspire and advance our highest nature and potential instead? We know where we’ve been, it’s time we become what is needed to get where we want to go.
We will have to be willing to let go of all we relied on before in fear, familiarity, and comfort, realizing they are prisons of perception and experience that keep us small and devoid of our destiny. We must also be patient. Addressing these larger issues in the world takes time. We waste energy and circumvent the problem in attacking and blaming others; we are not here to fix or save others from their karmic responsibilities and destinies. We can utilize our gifts and time to address what is presenting inside ourselves and in our immediate realm of influence. We can embody what love is calling for us to express. This is our greatest gift to life and all in it. If we don’t know who we are, and if we aren’t connected and empowered from the inside, we can’t conceive of our own legend or brand in service to life and its higher design. Everything in the way exists inside us. It is in facing our fears and activating our true love in their stead that propels us into our best position possible. Old myths called for slaying dragons and demons, but in the higher frequencies we are now in, I have found that what we fight we resist and empower, allowing it to remain in our story. My greatest triumphs have come from applying love and forgiveness to my shadows, which led to their dissolution and disempowerment entirely. Any shadows that remained lost their effectiveness to manipulate and influence, once I accepted them and acknowledged them as retired parts of me that came online to protect, serve, or defend me in some way. As we own and dismantle these energies in ourselves, and commit to new pathways of experience and behavior, we will see our efforts reflected in the world around us. As I write this today, I feel new voices and opportunities rising inside awaiting their expression in form. I am with them in the dreamtime too, learning, planting, and aligning. I know it is not something to be rushed, but savored. We will have the steps appear as we are ready. Aquarius has landed with an endless field of possibility, if you haven’t already, take the time to consider a new pathway that is opening before you. I would love to hear about what is coming alive and attainable in creation through you. 💞
